Embrace Life

Lift | Mighty List 2

Since I wrote out my first Mighty List in April 2012 I managed to accomplish a lot, I also managed to forget about the list while life had me focus on other things. It's time to regroup and figure out a new list, one that serves me better and takes into consideration all that I've learned in the past two years. 

Nowhere on my original list was "take private reformer Pilates classes" or "take kids on a Caribbean cruise" or "file every spec of paper in the house" - things I've done that have greatly enriched my life. I'm revisiting this project as I like the idea of a brain dump of things to accomplish before I am unable to accomplish anything else. Real big dream-to-goal things, not just a simple laundry list of chores. A true MIGHTY list.

On that same note, it's okay to LET GO of some things. Transcend from a bucket list format of catching every half formed thought or idea and embrace exactly who I am and what I want to do to enrich my mind, body and soul. To do that, truly honour who and what I am it was necessary to face some truths and my list reflects those realizations.

Some things remain, some things have changed - some things were actually accomplished from the original list. In no particular order, this is my new version:

1. Take a painting class - watercolours first - then oil and acrylic
2. Keep my Project Life up-to-date
3. Take a trip with stops in Morocco, Turkey and Italy for sure
4. Write - and publish - a novel
5. Choose my favourite blog posts and put them into book form
6. Find the root of the weight issue then lose it, enough to feel good again
7. Fix and cull all of the categories on my blog
8. Find a companion, a man who brings out the best in me, and me him
9. Submit 10 articles for publication - then have them published
10. Watch the opera - MET showings - at Silvercity
11. Take golf lessons - then golf as often as possible
12. Write a cookbook for my kids of all our favourite meals
13. Clear out the storage locker
14. Continue to model the behaviour I want to see in my children
15. Then model better
16. Take a creative writing course
17. Go indoor skydiving
18. Put together a library of all the creative courses I've taken - and finish the projects that still resonate
19. Feel rested and 100% well
20. The biggest "unattainable" dream in my life, ever: have an article published by Vanity Fair magazine
21. Read ALL of the books on my bookshelf
22. Purchase the exact outdoor couch I have pictured in my head (and not freak out about the ridiculous price)
23. Write a children's book - then write some more
24. Leave the house more and connect with people, even if it's just to sit in a restaurant and observe
25. Forgive myself for the ache my children suffer at the neglect of their father
26. Clear all of the clutter from each and every room in my home
27. Meditate and move daily
28. Buy a home on the Canyon Ranch Tucson property
29. Replace my entire wardrobe with clothes that fit properly and make me feel good
30. Take regular "photo walks" to someplace new and creatively evocative
31. Then compile a big coffee table book of photos and experiences
32. Organize ALL of the files on my computer
33. Go on one soul-filling retreat each month - writing, photography, quiet, creative
34. Take a trip to the UK and visit all of the places that resonate within me
35. Buy the Canon EOS 1-DX camera
36. Go snowshoeing
37. Watch Downton Abbey, Veronica Mars, The Good Wife, Breaking Bad, Suits, Friday Night Lights, Mad  Men, Six Feet Under, Freaks & Geeks
38. Turn my townhouse into a real honest-to-goodness townhouse with heavy doors, crown moulding and high baseboards
39. Find an accountant to get all of my finances in order and open The Next Chapter Studio
40. Learn to make "relief" pottery - then make a lot of it!

This list-in-progress reflects exactly who I am and what I want to include in my life.

What is on your Mighty List?

OPEN | Here Comes The Sun

If I were to sum up my last 365 days, I'd say it is like a year-long spectacular sunrise. Gone is the darkness and haze and I'm entering into a new phase of life, with confidence, anticipation and wonder.

Last week I was sitting in my living room listening to my kids and it occurred to me that this year was really remarkable, filled with accomplishments. A lifetime in a year.

It may sound silly, but I really don't think a lot of it would have been possible without my guiding words. Last year was "DO". Funny how the word didn't know it was time to retire on December 31st to make way for it's replacement "OPEN". DO was determined and stuck around until late winter. It lead me to be able to embrace "OPEN". Open would not have happened without Do preceding it.

This is where the combination of Do and Open have lead me:

• Last May I hired a lawyer and filed for separation. The laws are wonky (read: frustrating) and the year is mandatory before any other action can be taken.
• Switched from one terrible MD to another lovely MD who takes my health, and that of my children, as seriously as I do. Between her and our naturopath, we are all on a journey to wellness.
• Bought a new, manageable, home perfect in size and design for our lifestyle - not for the perception of others.
• Sold a beautiful, expansive, house on the lake that all of my children despised.
• Changed our whole banking system and dealt with "scary" banking people. Then, with guidance, took charge of all of the bills - and faced some stark realities of money management.
• I was paralyzed. I couldn't even turn on the computer and log in without a knot in my stomach and the accompanying nausea. The same feeling I got when the phone rang, or the mail arrived. Upon reflection, I have completely conquered phone, bill paying and mail phobias and fears.
• Cancelled, modified and started services - mindfully.
• Chloé started at a new school, and thrives.
• Joined the local YMCA, and don't go nearly often enough.
• Divided up 7,500 square feet worth of furniture and belongings and moved our half.
• Replaced A LOT of carpet in two houses.
• Let the kids paint their own bedrooms in the colours they chose and, while we were at it, changed the whole colour scheme of our home. No more earth tones.
• Replaced some appliances with quiet and efficient models which should save us a lot of time and money.
• White-knucked, I taught Claire how to drive. She hopes to get her license in August - along with a car. Um, no. License does not equal vehicle. A battle is brewing.
• Experienced, with amazement, the theatrics and ego of directors who are supposed to be teaching children, not going all 'diva' on them. Crazy.
• Some days I just sat back in wonder that, for the better part of 20 years, I was kept in the dark. About everything. Lies of omission are cruel.
• Got back into volunteering and now spend at least one day a week at the school.
• Claire wanted to play baseball again - and I signed her up for Little League. I still think she's a bit startled over my complete support.
• Had Caden write an application and attend an interview which resulted in his acceptance to the same school his siblings attend. Next year all four of my kids at one place. Yahoo!
• Lost a good friend far too soon. We miss him, every day.
• Turned in a leased vehicle that was too small for our needs and purchased a new one that should be perfect for the next decade or longer. Fingers crossed!
• Faced the fact that my kids struggle with confidence in Math and I can't help them. A fabulous tutor was hired. Things are improving.
• Purged all processed food from our kitchen and started to practice more mindful eating. To the point where I considered refined sugar as "poison" and cringe when my kids have a cookie or ice cream!
• Learned how to use PSE and now scrapbook more than ever before.
• Let both of my boys "retire" from hockey. Thank goodness. What a dreadful experience. Though there were some wonderful people along the way - there were some real crazies.
• Went to court for the first time in my life then hired a criminal attorney. Who knew I'd need to get in touch with him - twice?
• Realized that though a lot has changed, I can still sit in my living room and drama, not of my making, will happen.
• Helped Cole realize that sometimes plans change. He is not receptive to change, at all. Working all winter - hours and hours of conditioning - to improve his rugby skills were erased in one stupid knee to the head. Concussion = no rugby = a change in plans. This has been tough.
• Dealt with teen drama and helped my children cope, as best they can, with the good and bad, all of the consequences of choice.
• I have made new friends, nurtured relationships with old friends and regularly engage with my family with no lingering sense of apology. There is no longer anyone feeling like they are in competition - and failing. What an enormous relief!
• Let my children embrace travel: All to Cape Cod, Claire to Europe, the boys to Florida, Cole to B.C. with the Ontario Rugby team and Chloé with me to Vegas - yes, I've been sworn to secrecy ;)
• Took my kids to the "motherland" - New Brunswick - and they loved it. True Maritimers at heart :)
• Watched my eldest take her first dance lessons, ever. At the age of 16.
• Listened to my younger girl sing her heart out on a number of occasions. My goodness is she talented!
• Reluctantly allowed Caden to sign up for football. He LOVES it. Really, really enjoys every minute of it. He hasn't played in his first game yet and he's already asked to sign up for the fall league.
• I have said "yes" to a lot. I realized that "no" might be easier, but "yes" is far more rewarding - and way more work!
• Encouraged my late-blooming children to take risks and make new friends. And, in some cases, recognize when relationships have run their course.
• I can only make every effort to model the best possible behaviour for my children. I am their only parent, present and dedicated to them every day. It is a hard job, but worth every minute of time and effort!
• Realized, when recently introduced as a "single mother of four" that I am! It never even occurred to me to think of myself in those terms.
• You teach people how you want to be treated. I remind myself every day.

The year was abundant.

On top of it all, there were the everyday life things that can fill a day without much effort: cooking, cleaning, organizing, driving children all over! I did things this year that never even occurred to me to do.

Now that I know I can do all of that, and more, I am consciously staying OPEN to new opportunities and challenges.

Who knows what the next 365 days will bring?

2011 | The DO Summary

Last year I chose my one word not knowing the impact it would have on my world. How can a two letter word have any impact? Well, I decided to really embrace the spirit of the exercise and involved my word DO in just about everything - every aspect - of my life. If you need to get off your duff and get things moving THIS is the right word for you!

I definitely needed to make some changes and DO was the right catalyst to choose.

As with most things, plans are just that: plans. When I put together my plan for 2011 post last year I thought it was pretty ambitious. I had no idea the domino effect - or the amount of time - one decision makes on countless others! This year went by at breakneck speed, some recorded in various blog posts, most just spent doing and catching my breath then doing some more!

Of the things I outlined for 2011, this is where they stand:

PERSONAL DO | Last December, if anyone told me I'd be where I am now, I'd have fainted from the immensity of it all. My simple plan to keep my head above water: lose some weight, take charge of my health and care for my kids became so much bigger, in such a good way. Essentially I have done all of those things: lost some weight, took charge of my health and cared for my children but on an epic scale that includes a can't-be-soon-enough divorce, a lovely but different new home, a new purpose and a new life filled with opportunity, positivity and kindness.  

CREATIVE DO | As a direct result of the epic changes in my Personal DO my Creative DO suffered. But really, it didn't. I can now bring a new meaning and authenticity to all that I write, all that I photograph, all that I blog. Just when I thought I couldn't be more honest or genuine, I find another layer to expose.

SOCIAL DO | Funny, this is the one area I managed to accomplish exactly what I set out to do: I want to spend more time with my friends. Make them a priority. Let them know by my actions that they are a priority. Plan coffee, lunch, dinner, evenings out and make them important enough that the only thing that would make me cancel would involve an aneurysm or household catastrophe. There were no aneurysms, but there were plenty of household catastrophes! Through it all my friends have been patient and supportive.

SPIRITUAL DO | Here's the cautionary tale in "be careful what you wish for" as my desire for less clutter, less stuff catapulted me into a need to sell my big beautiful house on the lake. When I wanted to purge the house of anything not used or loved, I had no idea I'd end up purging the house itself.

FAMILY DO | Regarding my children, I wrote the words this time is about them and it really resonated within me. This is really what kept me going through all of the changes I created through the year. I reminded myself that this time is about them and behaved accordingly: like an adult, like a parent, like their greatest cheerleader and guided them as best I could through what could have been a shattering experience for them. They've had to maneuver their way through an emotional minefield and I'm so very proud of each of them for their strength and risiliency.

WORK DO | So my ambitious plan, to take my love of words + photos and make things to encourage intention and authenticity in the lives of others, was a bit more than I could take on. Who knows? I might get at it this year? or not.

How did your word work for you?

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PLANS FOR 2012 | My word has been purcolating for a while. 2011 brought with it so many changes - and new adventures, people and opportunities; so much DOne, I think this year coming up my "word" will need to offer a change of pace. Something to help me cope and absorb the whirlwind around me. Again, I'll be joining Ali Edwards on her One Word journey. Last year I checked in on occasion and enjoyed the process and community, this year I hope to check in and participate a bit more.

List of Lee Improvements

Like many of us, I am (still) a work in progress. There are a number of improvements that can be made, old habits to break. I've identified a few areas I consider lacking, and if I could be better at a few things, these would be where I'd start. In fact, I've started:

PATIENCE. A virtue to which I aspire and constantly fall short. I just do not understand what motivates other people to be unkind or self-serving and I find it frustrating. I also have a problem with having to repeat myself. Which I have to do, a lot. I'm thinking it is because I've surrounded myself with four pre- and full-teens. Start: My kids mentioned recently that I no longer "heavy sigh". Looks like I've removed a few patience-testers ;)

FINISHING. I love the rush of a new project. The promise of the completed idea. Unfortunately, I tend to use up all of my energy and enthusiasm on the planning and preparation stages and completely fizzle out by the execution stage. Most of the things I take on (or get put upon me) are large in scale. Start: I'm trying to take things in smaller chunks and am enjoying the smaller victories. Sweet motivation!

TEMPER. I am slow to boil, but when I do, look out: I blow. I am working on it, but it's hard to keep a lid on sometimes. Start: At least I am learning to pick my battles and simply ignore the rest. It is an improvement. Just don't go after my kids, that really is just about the only battle worth waging - and I wage well.

ENGAGING. I always feel forgettable. My assumption is that though we may have met, you would not have remembered me. If you and I are at the same event and the situation does not present itself for me to say "hello", I don't say "hello" and assume it's not a big deal. Start: It is super uncomfortable, but I'm making an effort to say "hello" even if, which is very likely, I've forgotten your name. I just apologise up front and greet you anyway.

MONEY: Money has always scared me and it is one of the few things - a HUGE thing - that makes me want to put my head in the sand and ignore. Hmm. Not smart. For years I haven't had to administer the payment of a household bill and it was bliss. Not having to address that knot in my stomach. Guess what? I do now! Start: I'm opening bills and paying them right away. It still makes me uncomfortable but I'm dealing with it.

LETTERS. I want to write letters. Real letters. I just can't seem to find the time. Start: I have a box of notecards and a pen in my purse. It may not be a long note, but it's better than nothing.

MUSIC. For years I've been mocked over my choices in music (not edgy or obscure enough). Outside of the privacy of my vehicle, I stopped listening. Start: I have turned off the television and music is playing in the house all day long. Not only is it less distracting, I get so much more done through the day.

CONNECTION. The last six months have been an odd and uncertain chapter in my life, one of extreme transition for me and for my kids. We have, not by choice (certainly not theirs), disconnected from parts of our recent past. Start: We are reconnecting with family and friends on a regular basis. Regular phone calls. Regular visits. It has been wonderful. So good for my children, and me too!

CREATIVITY. Totally abandoned, as evidenced by the lack of regular posting here on the blog! No writing. No photos. No scrapbook pages. No decor changes. No plans. Sigh. Start: I've raised my hand and volunteered to take some photos for others. It's not much, but it's something. I've even inched back into posting. Sort of.

SAYING "NO". I asked my kids "what am I really bad at" and they each responded with the same thing. Clearly this is something that should change :) I do say "yes" a lot but I think over the winter they need, and we need, a bit more structure. In order to do that, I'll have to throw around a few "no's". Start: nothing yet, but considering.

So, the easy part - identification - is done. The hard part - starting - is underway!

2011 | Social Do | 02 The Postcard Project

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While in Cape Cod this summer I had some time to decompress. I was able to sit back and set some priorities and consider a new perspective regarding the happenings in my life of late.

The "bad" stuff aside, I have been on a delightful journey that has been positive, kind and empowering. It had the potential to be quite the opposite, but in my effort to convert shit into sunshine, I've chosen for this experience to be a lesson in patience, kindness and positivity.

Part of that lesson is connection, and in some cases, re-connection.

Over the years, I have populated my life with some incredible people. Sometimes, actually, a lot of the time, I forget to tell them how much they are loved and appreciated. Sure, there are the occasional wall posts over on Facebook, maybe even a "like" or two, but nothing really tangible, thoughtful or consistent. I send plenty of e-mails but sometimes they can be impersonal though the words are not. They still leave me wanting for more.

Then I found this post. The words expressed exactly how I was feeling. I used to love to open the mailbox to find a thoughtful suprise inside - not just bills and advertisements. I like the idea of "pleasing" and "delighting" the many people I care about. So, like Tara, I will send a postcard, or two, every Monday morning. Doesn't that sound like a wonderful way to start the week?

This idea was reinforced when I read a recent article over at Gretchen Rubin's blog earlier this week. This project is part of my step #1 - "show up".

Better yet? I am going to convert some of my most favourite photos into post cards and will send those rather than the creations of someone else.

What do you think?

I have run into one glitch. I have a ton of e-mail addresses, but not many snail mail addresses. If you'd like to receive a post card I'd love to send one to you :) Please forward to me your mailing address to linarstudio.lc at gmail dot com and I'll be sure to add you to the "hey, I'm thinking of you" recipient list. Please send it to me even if you think I already have it. Through the move I'm still trying to find stuff I put in a "safe place". Eek!

4 Simple Goals | September 2011

a day late ...

Last August, Elsie Flannigan posted a simple and doable challenge.

My 4 Simple Goals, September edition, includes:

1. PAINTING. Every room in the new house is in various stages of "done". By the end of the month I want to have all of the painting completed. Not one speck that needs to be painted will be waiting on paint.
2. CAMERA PLAY. For my birthday I bought a new lens for my camera. (Well, my sister got it for me in the States and I'm waiting on it's arrival.) I want to make the time through the month to play with it and learn how to make it do what I need it to do before the big World Wide Photo Walk on October 1st!
3. MAP OUT. And organize the calendar, lists and other household logistics of Autumn, through to Christmas. All of the kids have their studies which is the top priority followed by work (paid and volunteer) and activities (choir and hockey). All of this has to be figured out and put in a way that it is manageable - with as much consistency as possible.
4. PRINT. I've been meaning to send them in, but I have to organize and send in my Cape Cod album pages to Green Pixel Printing.

REWARD: I fell in love a particular ring, ever since I saw it on Pinterest, a while back. It represents to me my new sense of being untied, free, loose ... ready for whatever comes next. So, if I am able to accomplish my list, I'll order my ring. 

What about you? Do you have a few activity oriented goals you'd like to meet? If so and you participate, let me know! I'd love to see what you have planned.

2011 | The DO Update

Way back in December 2010, I chose the word DO to be my guiding word for 2011.

Wow.

Who knew how prophetic that choice would be? Over the last few months I've been busy LIVING my DO rather than recording or reporting on it.

A lot got done!

From that first post to now, here is a little update:

Personal DO

UPDATE:

I did download and set up CZ's MMEL program - though I converted mine to a Move More, Eat Better program since eating too much has never been my issue. I did manage to get to the mall 3 or 4 mornings a week and I did my laps with the lovely blue haired ladies, often quicker than me! Now that the weather has improved, I've been walking the perimeter of the kids' school at least four mornings each week. As planned, all of the classics have been loaded onto my iPad; but unplanned, they have not been read. The big personal DO event was a trip to Canyon Ranch in April with my sister, Beth. THAT one event revolutionized my life and provided the catalyst for much needed change.

Creative DO

UPDATE:

I have let go of the "creative" me for the last couple of months. Though my interests remain the same - photos + words - I'm finding my expression of those interests is changing. I have been submitting to, and receiving acceptance for, blog hops and guest articles. It's a lot of fun and I hope to keep doing it. Ideas are percolating and with the upcoming physical changes in my studio I'm curious what I'll manage in the new digs!

Social DO

UPDATE:

I do believe that I have let my friends know they are loved and admired! Not only have I managed to carve out time for lunches and dinners, I've stepped out of my traditional comfort zone and opened myself up to people I didn't know and want to know better. I've truly embraced that the worst that can happen is I hear "no" and that is a risk I'm willing to take. It has been empowering to be forthright and honest with everyone around me. No more pretense or politic. Heavy sigh of contentment.

Spiritual DO

UPDATE:

Though unintentional, the big purge ended up being my old Toshiba laptop which I was using to "house" my old photos and files. Over 30,000 images, two novels, a dozen or so outlines, all my music files, historical information and research was lost when it was tossed in the dumpster. Onward! More intentional was the big purge of everything - every single room - and the realization that the bigger the house the more c.r.a.p. it can contain. So, I purged the house, too.

Family DO

UPDATE:

Keeping in mind that this time is about them, my children, I came to the inevitable conclusion that the best thing for our family was the disolution of it - in the form it was in. So, though my plan was to reduce clutter and focus on the concept of spend less :: do more with time invested on relationships, making memories and embracing downtime, we ended up with no downtime as we got the house ready for sale and planned the big move. My kids continue to introduce changes and challenges every day but they are thriving in this new environment.

Work DO

UPDATE:

Life Is Not A Rehearsal and as much as I thought I was living my life with intention and authenticity, I was not. There was plenty of intention but the authenticity was lacking. I couldn't move forward without dealing with that and I am still in that process. Once I'm on more solid ground, I do plan on using words + photos to make things in an effort to encourage others to embrace intention and authenticity in their own lives with plenty of kindness, love and humour.

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And with that, my DO is updated! So much more has been done than originally planned and I am so much happier for the direction my word has taken me.

Is it the word? Did I choose it, or did it choose me? How much power can a simple word have? I suppose it is as effective as I allow it to be. At this stage it is the right choice for right now. So much easier and adaptable than a list of resolutions that would have been quickly left on the wayside as I got on with my life.

My life right now does not look anything like it did six months ago.

I have learned that I am stronger than I thought, kinder than I knew and more risilient than I ever imagined possible. I really can do anything.

And I am.

2011 | Personal DO | 06 Who I'm Meant To Be

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I am so happy Oprah lives on - online :)

Yesterday, while taking a bit of a break, I took a "Who Am I Meant to Be" test written by Anne Dranitsaris, PhD, which was found in the Spirit Newsletter I receive. I always like this kind of test, but it is particularly appealing now that I'm wondering what path to take moving forward.

Just when you think things are changing, they stay the same. Why was I not surprised?

YOU ARE STRIVING TO BE IN CONTROL

You are a leader: You approach everything as though you were born to be in charge. Confident, assertive, and decisive, you know what you want and you go after it. You also look out for family, friends, and community—you feel you know what's best for them—and have no fear of confronting anyone who challenges your ideas. Taking the driver's seat, you also generously donate time and energy to people and neighborhood projects.

What to watch out for: When you feel threatened, or others refuse to go along with your agenda, you can become confrontational and domineering, sometimes to the point of being dictatorial. Practice letting someone else take charge on occasion. Also try meditation; it can help you be-come more aware of your controlling impulses and ease the anxiety that may be provoking them.

Looking ahead: You discover your purpose when you take control of your environment. For you, finding a decision-making role is key. That could mean anything from producing a play to spearheading a global campaign for something you care about. In work, you're suited for leadership positions in education, government, industry, finance, religious institutions, or politics. But you can find satisfaction anytime you're given the autonomy to do things your own way.

YOUR SCORES

Many people have two or three strong striving styles, and they can all be important in leading you to the person you are meant to be. If you have a few "highest" scores, read each matching description, and see what rings most true.

Striving to HELP: 15
Striving to be RECOGNIZED: 12
Striving to be CREATIVE: 16
Striving to be SPONTANEOUS: 15
Striving to be KNOWLEDGEABLE: 16
Striving to be SECURE: 16
Striving to be IN CONTROL: 17

What about you?

CAREER SUGGESTIONS:

Striving to be in control: Decisiveness and authority come easily to this type, so they work best in leadership roles:

Restaurant manager
Healthcare administrator
Sales director
Teacher
Political consultant
Marketing manager
Advertising executive
Politician

Hmm. No writer or photographer in that list, eh? No worries, I'll figure something out as I move along. My plan is along the lines of my old work which would be close to marketing manager - but this time with a twist :)

I have to say, I'm happy given my current circumstances that this is my result. Every skill is being employed. Another result may have had me in a puddle.

If you take the test, let me know YOUR results! Are you who you meant to be, or should you be doing something else?

The Autobiography Project

A few weeks back, when Ali Edwards messaged on Facebook that she was working on a new digi-album, I was, as always, intrigued. The minute it became available, I bought it. Then came the hard part. What in the world was I going to do with it?

Take a look and let me know what you think.

[Click on all images to enlarge]

[ETA: Thank you to Lorraine, for pointing out my spelling error! It has been corrected on the original.]

  These are the opening and closing covers:

SUPPLIES: Autobiography Layered Template (Ali Edwards) • patterned paper (Haley Paper Pack)

Now I just have to figure out what to do with it now that it's 100% complete - a small miracle. I'm so pleased now that it's finished. Not only that, it started as a daunting task but once I got going - with some help from my friend Jill (who is always so patient with me), it really didn't take too long to get it all done. Well worth it, I think!

I started the project just before I left for my 10-Days in Arizona. I'm glad the completed book is from the pre-trip perspective. My plan is to make another next year when, presumably, I'll be feeling better. I'm curious to know what the differences might be.

So, what do you think? Send it to Shutterfly? Send it some place local? Some other place? Any ideas?

4 Simple Goals | May 2011

Last August, Elsie Flannigan posted a simple and doable challenge.

My 4 Simple Goals, May edition, includes:

1. Containers. I've been terrible at getting the planters filled on a timely basis. Now that Spring looks to have sprung, I'll be filling at least those at the front entry. Who knows, I might even buy some trees to replace those we pulled out last year!
2. Exercise. Based on the schedule set out by the exercise physiologist at Canyon Ranch, FOLLOW IT, every day. Especially the program on the recumbent bike. Walking is a bonus not a basis. AND Head over to the local indoor pool and join up. Also, check out the fitness classes and if one appeals - join in it, too!
3. Get the ball rolling. There is stuff that can no longer be avoided. Time to fix things.
4. Recipes. Print out all of the Canyon Ranch recipes the kids like as well as all the recipes for the food eaten and enjoyed while away. Put in a binder and put in an accessable area in the kitchen. TRY every recipe at least once. Throw out recipes we don't like and keep what we do. 

REWARD: I found an aquatic jogger while away and if I manage to stick with my plans for the month, that will be my reward!

What about you? Do you have a few activity oriented goals you'd like to meet? If so and you participate, let me know! I'd love to see what you have planned.

2011 | Personal DO | 03 health

Much of January and February was spent in an effort to set myself up for success through this year, and beyond. Habits changed and systems put in place to address issues that had become out of control. One of those issues is my health.

I have a great and powerful force in my life - a secret weapon. Her name is Beth. She is small yet mighty. When she tells you to do something, you do it. In February she told me to book a flight to Tucson and plan to spend 10 days away from my family and dedicate some time to getting healthy. That is exactly what I did.

I just returned from spending 10 days focusing on my health. I did more things in those days than I had in the last 10 years! Between an awesome doctor and his team of nurses, nutritionist, therapist, exercise physiologist and amazing acupuncturist, I have a baseline, a diagnosis and a new direction.

One thing you do not want to hear, ever, is "you are very ill". Trust me. How do I know? I just heard it. To the point where right after getting the results a prescription was written and a bottle of medication was waiting for me by the time I returned to my room at the end of the day. The flip side of that is the relief and validation that courses through me when I realize the suffering - emotionally and physically - of the last few years could have been avoided if my doctor was not so insistent that my health issues were due to laziness or lack of will.

I have Thyroid Disease. The numbers are, and again I quote, "off the chart". I was told I should be at least twice the size I am now and that it is a wonder I am as energetic as I am - I have no outward indicators of the disease. That, according to my new doctor, is force of will. I am certainly not lacking in that department. (I cannot express adequately how much I love Dr. Brewer who is so kind, knowledgeable, honest and progressive in his approach.)

I went from my test results review and final meeting with the doctor over to the nutritionist who repeated the phrases "you are very ill" and "off the chart" a couple of more times. I don't know if she was afraid I didn't understand the severity of the disease or maybe it was a result of her own complete surprise and then finally understanding of my frustration. The good news? I already eat well. The better news? If I follow all of the instructions (from the exercise physiologist and nutritionist) I can eat almost triple my normal caloric intake. Crazy. Oh, and if I do that, I'll lose weight.

In 10 days in Tucson:

• I walked, a lot.
• I ate, a lot.
• I swam, a lot.
• I talked, a lot.
• I laughed, a lot.
• I sweat, a lot.
• I learned, a lot.
• I moved, a lot.
• I planned, a lot.

I am still absorbing it all and putting a plan together to incorporate all that I learned into a workable routine in my house, with my kids on board.

The bonus? If I do all these things and manage to lose some weight, I'll be able to do more than just buy some nice new clothes (after my 2+ year ban on new purchases that will be a welcome experience!) but the other health issues that have been negatively impacting my daily life will be addressed: poor sleeping, food intollerances, psoriasis and frozen shoulder. Everything is all tied in together which, without the benefit of these tests, I never would have known.

Now that I'm armed with good information and the bones of a plan, I'm looking forward to the months ahead. For the first time, in a long time.

Thank you Beth! You're the best sister, evah.

4 Simple Goals | April 2011

Last August, Elsie Flannigan posted a simple and doable challenge.

My 4 Simple Goals, April edition, includes:

1. Breathe. I know this sounds like a no-brainer, but this month, though not filled with too many activities, will be stressful. I have to remember to simply breathe, and smile. Oh, and a bit of tongue-biting may also be employed.
2. 52 Projects. Put it all together and start making things. I'm going to use all that I learned at the recent Donna Downey class and combine it with a few ideas found on the www and start experimenting!
3. Redesign. The blog is out of date, some things are driving me crazy, some things need to be moved. While I'm at it, I need to design a blog for Cape Escape 2011 and for our creative group of ladies. First things first, but if I can get a bunch done, I'll be thrilled!
4. Laundry PURGE. Now that the season is changing - finally - I'm going to go through all of the kids clothing and all of the household items that find their way down to the laundry room and purge. All of the clothes the kids have grown out of will be given away and everything else stored and labelled properly.

REWARD: This month will be full of rewards - so, done or not, there will be no extra rewards required this month!

What about you? Do you have a few activity oriented goals you'd like to meet? If so and you participate, let me know! I'd love to see what you have planned.

[Why am I posting a day early? I want to give Sue the whole day tomorrow for her interview post.]

My days with Donna ... and friends ...

I have to say, this woman wields a mean, er, creative spray bottle:

I am the first to admit I am not into messy. Disorganized, maybe. Ooey, gooey, not so much. It was with trepedation I signed up for this course. Then completely forgot! (Long embarrasing story.)

I arrived in Kitchener on Friday evening, way too early for class, and Karen from The Art House Studio had a store set up in the hallway entrance to a conference room in the Holiday Inn. A store, really. Fully stocked and ready to go. I was thrilled and amazed and then promptly spent way too much money.

I then met Donna Downey, who is lovely. I know of Donna primarily through two people I greatly admire: the dynamic and lovely Cathy Zielske and the gentle and lovely Sherry Morales. Two women for whom I give thanks daily to the powers that be to have them in my life. They like Donna? I like Donna. Now that I've met her? I like her more!

The first class with Donna, "A Life Inspired", was an opportunity for me to stretch. Years ago, while I was in middle school and high school, the days when I fully embraced my artist within, I was all about the mess. The abandon. The complete lack of control and restraint. Ah ... What a lovely reminder of who I used to be. What a lovely reminder that I could be that again. Will I? Who knows. I certainly have enough messy stuff to make that a reality! I did mention the full store in the hallway, didn't I?

I know I learned a lot. I didn't take one note, I just absorbed everything around me. Donna, my tablemates, the other ladies in the room. Fabulous! The best take? When choosing adhesive pick what the item is being adhered to above all. I am hesitant to try a lot of things because I don't want to spent hours on a project only to have it melted onto the floor a few months later. Right? I am now the proud owner of the right adhesive and armed with knowledge.

Here is the whole class with our finished works:

I drove back home and headed straight to bed! Creative fulfillment is a great sleep aid.

Saturday was full of activity in our house but I managed to make it back to Kitchener to attend the "Inspiration Journal" class where I joined Holly, Lori and Sue who had been there for the very, very messy morning session!

We all enjoyed the afternoon of "Inspiration Journal". I learned a lot. I figured out my comfort zone and this class took me far beyond those limits but at least I now know some techniques and gleaned some ideas I know will be applied in my future creations. I do think I have to buy stock in Golden - or become an employee since it's employee owned :)

LOVE these women! Every one of them helps bring out the best in me. Who doesn't want that kind of inspiration and acceptance in their life? I am so very fortunate.

If you're in the area, Karen (I can't believe I didn't get a photo with her!) and her brilliant store (not the one in the hall!) can be found:

The Art House Studio
591 Lancaster St West, Unit 3
Kitchener, ON N2K 1M5
519-954-6620
The Art House Studio

A note to anyone wondering, door to door is less than an hour - exactly 55 minutes away. Well worth the trip given that local options are less than adequate.

I am so very fortunate to have the opportunity to take classes - in person - with so many talented women who cover the spectrum of creative inspiration. Even more fortunate to have a great group of ladies - probably equally if not more talented - who inspire me and give me a good swift kick in the pants every time I need it! Thank you so much Sue, Lori and Holly (and Karen). I can't wait for our next adventure!

One Little Word | Captured | 07, 08 & 09

Oh my, I'm behind. Not in my photo taking, but certainly in my sharing!

| 07

THE STORY: Cole loves very few foods. It makes shopping for him very easy. He, along with the rest of the kids, need to learn how to fend for themselves as our schedules become less static and our lives become more fluid.

WHY DO? This particular food - pulled pork - is pretty labour intensive so I used it as a teaching opportunity - especially since he is the one who really loves it. It was time to teach him, start to finish, how to shop for and make his favourite foods. He learned how to choose the meat from the grocer, get the ingredients together (luckily there are only 3 or 4), how to set the crock pot, cook the meat, shred the meat, mix it all up and dish it up onto a fresh kaiser roll and make a side salad. Yum!

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| 08

THE STORY: In early January my washer went on the fritz. I was wondering why the clothing was all soggy when I went to transfer it into the dryer. It kept coming up with an "F1" error code.

WHY DO? I figured out how to make it work by pushing a series of buttons, but it often shut down in mid-cycle and that was a pain to babysit each load, as I wash a lot of laundry during the course of the week. I went online and found a message board and on it I was informed that this code was indicative of a problem with the circuit board and it was a FREE FIX! Well, free as in parts and labour. I actually picked up the phone (ugh) and contacted Whirlpool who sent out two local repair guys. My "free" fix cost me the $90 service call, but hey, now I don't have to babysit the washing machine.

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| 09

THE STORY: I used to hold regular gatherings with lovely, supportive, creative and empowering ladies, until a joy sucking hag made it miserable for everyone. I have lived the last couple of years desperately missing the interaction and good parts but in fear of history repeating itself. Though, how could there ever be two? (Knocking wood!)

WHY DO? The hardest part was forcing myself to reopen my heart to embrace a more social existence. This was hard. Really hard. Not to orchestrate, but to just do: send out an invitation, fingers crossed, and go for it, fingers crossed. So far our little group has enjoyed our second gathering and I have to say, so far so good. I'm thrilled to have put myself out there again. The ladies are wonderful, the laughter contageous, the stories empowering and the plans, oh the plans we are making are fantastic!

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

2011 | Personal DO | 05 attitude

Finding a quote that suits my guiding word "do" and my expectation of it is hard! Most searches will not work with a two-letter word. I'm sure it is because the one- and two-letter words are so common as to render any search unusable. Anyway. With perseverance I have found one that sums my feelings toward "do" perfectly:

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."
- Theodore Roosevelt -

It really appeals to my practical and optimistic approach to this year. I want to:

• Work with what I have, fully aware of who I am, now.

• Understand and acknowledge my limitations - time, physical/health, money, personality ...

• Use what I have and accumulate less, with purpose.

• Be clear on my options and opportunities for knowledge and growth.

• Make the most of my life, here and now, and move forward in a mindful manner continuing to build on a foundation that is authentic and progressive.

Though I find I'm firmly planted in reality, sometimes I get ahead of myself and I am far too ambitious. I completely forget about my limitations and I take on more than I can actually accomplish. Either that or I really believe I can manufacture time in my basement :) Sadly, that is not the case, but what a wonderful idea, no? Or better, manufacture enthusiasm and drive. So hard!

It doesn't help much that, though I am a reformed perfectionist, I still demand excellence. When I do it has to be done right. When I commit to something, I see it through.

Gah!

With all of that in mind ...

When I don't do well, I have to acknowledge it and face it.

Right now, something has to give. I have not done well with two out of three design teams. One is too rigid. One is too loose. (The third is, thankfully, just right.) I am doing my best to face up to it and not consider myself a failure. Perhaps, in hindsight, agreeing to three design teams when I had never been on ONE before may have been a bit too ambitious! I feel I have let people down and I know I have - I agreed to perform a consistent and enthusiastic service and I have not. It is not that I don't have time, I just don't make the time. Those projects are constantly being moved to the bottom of the pile - so often I might as well just not do them. Which is exactly the case.

Sigh.

I've just written words I really dislike "It is with regret ..." and it is with regret. The flip side? I was taking space that rightfully belongs to someone else, someone with enthusiasm and passion.

(Sigh. I still feel awful.)

Doing what I can, with what I have, where I am. Now.

2011 | Personal DO | 04 clean

The older I get the more I need to surround myself with ... nothing. Or at least less.

With four kids, stuff is a natural byproduct of their existence. Between school and other activities there is always something lying around, not put away properly. Winter is never a good time to get on top of things, especially a winter like we are enduring which makes me want to stay in bed and pull up the covers! Too much snow - which really means too much snow, ice, rock salt and sand that gets trecked into my house. A never ending battle.

Also with the kids and our full lives there is not an awful lot of time to clean. I've done my best to share the burden among the kids but sometimes things are done better when you do it yourself. Mind you, my standards are changing in order to simply get things done.

Now that we're slowly coming out of hibernation and I've taken a good look around, I'm kind of overwhelmed with the amount of stuff everywhere!

Confession: I don't think I've put my own personal laundry away in actual drawers since some time in late October. There are two chairs which are regularly replenished in my bedroom - the good news is that the recumbent bike and elliptical machine are now clothing free since I use them! Surprise, I digress. I know it will take maybe 10 minutes to tidy it all up, but when I think of it, I'm too pooped to actually do. Then eventually you just don't see it any more. [Hanging head in shame.]

Proof:

I need a kick in the pants. And I found one!

Project: Simplify

over at simplemom.net. Starting March 7th for five weeks through April 8, she will be issuing a hot spot clean up challenge on Monday and then we are to post our accomplishment on our blog then link up the finished, purged and cleaned, area on the Friday over on her blog or via Flickr. The bonus is, in addition to a clean hot spot you will also qualify for a prize :)

So, with this I will purge my house, and my spirit, and hope you will join in!

One Little Word Blog Hop

Welcome to my contribution to the One Little Word Blog Hop which is organized by my on-line friend Margie and includes many of the ladies who participate over in the Ali Edwards-led One Little Word course over at Big Picture Classes. If you did not arrive from Chrissy's blog (oh, how I envy the idea of living in Arizona!) you are welcome to head over to Margie's to start at the start, or just continue along and you'll end up back around. Lots of good stuff being shared!

This is MONTH TWO of the twelve month One Little Word course. The idea is to take photographs to capture our chosen one little word. I'm very fortunate in that I have a bit of a head-start as I had previously joined my talented (and clearly clairvoyant) friend Jill Conyers so many of the photos were already taken and stories recorded:

Not only were the small photos taken, but the idea of taking a big photo was also suggested:

Much thanks to Chloe for taking the photo! It is representative of my current "do": me on the computer, though things are changing and I'm taking more risks and really digging deeper into my own authenticity. A reminder that next time I need a photo of me stretching to represent the new do and I have to say, even with aching shins, I am not deterred.

The spread looks like this:

I am enjoying this course immensely. This is my third year of participating in this guiding word concept and I have found it to be a much more positive and creative alternative to the typical, and usually unsustainable, tradition of resolutions usually made at the start of the new year. This is the first year of the course, and the first time to be part of a large supportive community, all of whom "get" what it is I'm doing!

The participants of the blog hop this month are:

Margie  <<< BLOG HOP STARTS HERE                
Monica Bradford             
Jill C                     
Miranda                
Donna                       
Lynn                                                    
Stacey                       
Lisa                                   
Cassie                       
Abbey                                   
Nicky                                   
Holly  
Karen T                                
Claudia                       
Rebekah                       
Kimberly                       
Kat                                   
Kristina                       
Jan
Nikki                                
Amanda                      
Lisa                                   
Sam                                   
Maureen                       
Kristi                                     
Tere                                   
Karen                                   
Katrina                         
Monica Bergler           
Mandy                       
Lisa                                   
Chrissy                       
Lee  <<< YOU ARE HERE                            
Jen  <<< YOUR NEXT STOP                               
Sylvia                                   
Christianne                       
Cheri                                  
Joy                                  
Beth                                   
Jennifer L                       
Kathryn                       
Heather                       
Cindy 
Cynthiau                       

To continue on the hop, go say hi to the very talented Jen out in California. All these girls in warm climates, I'm so jealous! You are also welcome to keep reading ...

I got off to a bit of a slow start. Capturing these portraits of myself is killing me! I did not participate in the first blog hop in February, but I'm glad to have participated this time around.

MONTH ONE

A very simple stamped cover:

The dreaded portrait of self (taken by Louis):

My definitions of "do":

Not only am I enjoying the concept of the course, I'm enjoying using up some of the materials I have collected in my studio. My abundance of stuff are not exactly "as outlined" in the course materials. The reasons are two-fold: I might as well use what I have; and, ordering from the States is often not just time consuming but economically ridiculous. I'm enjoying my opportunity to be more creative with my self-imposed limitations.

If you are interested in the concept, join in! You don't have to have chosen your guiding word on January 1st, if you have an inkling as to what you might want to do, sign up! Registration is open through the year. I knew this year I was going to  actively incorporate my word into my every day, and this course is certainly helping me stay on task, it along with Jill's photography challenge!

2011 | Family DO | 01 happiness

By most accounts, Abraham Lincoln is considered to have been a pretty smart guy. I've read a number of times - especially lately - his comment on happiness: "we are as happy as we choose to be".

I believe that. I've always believed that.

Now that does not discount tragic circumstances, things that are completely out of our control, but I believe we are, all of us, in full control of our reactions. Certainly the adults are expected to be. In our day-to-day existence it should be pretty routine to walk around in a good mood. If you can't do that then you can change it.

I know you can because I have.

I was raised by a miserable woman who, I am convinced now, was medically unstable. There was no bright side in her life, she was always looking for the lowest common denominator, and if she couldn't find it, she'd make it up. I thought she was unique. She is not. I am happy I survived that foundation and over the course of my years I've learned that there is always a bright side. You just have to choose to see it.

Better yet, choose to live it.

In my house we have two phrases my children will tell you they hear over and over again:

1. Do to others as you would have them do to you.

and

2. Do not inflict your bad mood on rest of us.
(Followed by "go to your room and come out when you can be a civilized human being" - said in varying degrees of volume. We're dealing with happy, not perfect.)

I'm sure there are a number of other phrases they hear and maybe I should pay closer attention! Another post for another time. At any rate, my children are children and I'm trying to ease them into understanding a happy and bright outlook. It's hard. They're kids. They struggle. Everything is either wonderful, or miserable. Black and white. Throw some hormones into the mix and whoa, look out! That's why there are only three rules in our house, the two above and the 24-hour rule: give me 24-hours notice for activities or the automatic answer is "no". Too many rules just confuses things and I'm not interested in living a litigious existence.

My job is to raise all four of them to be reasonably well-adjusted, contributing, confident and hard working adults. A tribute to their upbringing and to their own children.

Is happiness a moral obligation? I don't know that I would go that far, but I received via an e-mail from a friend, this talk:

What do you think? Are we entitled to happiness? Do your emotions dictate your actions or is it the other way around? Is this a philosophy to which you aspire or teach in your home?

One Little Word | Captured | 06

THE STORY: A while back I let go of my cleaning service. Why? They weren't cleaning as well as I liked and they were charging me an awful lot of money to do an inconsistent job. 

WHY DO? There really is nothing more thankless than cleaning a house! It's a disaster if you don't but no one notices or cares when it's all clean. Like most things in life, it's all about your attitude, so I've made cleaning, at least dusting, a fun-ish process. Armed with my FlyLady duster and iPod, I dance through the house a couple of days a week in an effort to keep on top of it all. My job is the dusting, bathrooms and kitchen; the kids divvy up the rest. Note: Duster also makes for a good microphone and drum stick.

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

Rocking the Do | Menah Menah

While coming back from the rink a couple of weekends ago, after a 6-1 thumping, Caden and I were talking about fun videos and he asked about the "Do Do" song. (No, we don't talk hockey, that is always left at the rink!) Anyway, Caden wanted to know how to look it up. Of course, thinking of my guiding word this year, I thought this was the perfect theme song to accompany my efforts.

Now every time I want to rock my do, I'll be thinking of the bright pink back up sistahs :) and Animal, of course.

As for today? Caden's team BEAT the Wings with a score of 3-2. Again we did not discuss hockey on the way home. Today's topic was it's the 12 of 12 and I forgot - yes, FORGOT, my camera!

2011 | Personal DO | 02 sleep

Over the last little while I've heard plenty about sleep: Arianna Huffington appeared on The View, Oprah had a show or ten, Gretchen Rubin in The Happiness Project, Nancy Nally had a heartbreaking post; all saying the same thing: we live a sleep-deprived existence and it is getting dangerous.

Being married to someone with severe sleep apnea, I am familiar with the dangers of sleep deprivation. Living with someone with severe sleep apnea who refuses to use his C-Pap machine leaves me wracked in fear. Daily. Though, if nothing else, 16+ years of marriage has taught me I can only care for those in my home who want to be cared for, so I take care of myself an my children.

In my effort to be around for a good long time, part of my Personal Do this year is to address my sleep, or lack of sleep, depending upon how my 46-year-old hormones want to behave :) A while back, I found a sleep "to do" list which has been repeated in different ways by many experts and non experts alike. Bottom line? In order to maximize your productivity you have to maximize the opposite effort: sleep.

How?

AMOUNT

I am definitely the average person. Those people who go around wearing their "I only sleep 4 hours a night" like a badge of honour scare the crap out of me and are those I want to avoid on the highway! Anyway, the average person needs about 7-8 hours a night to stay fully alert and refreshed all day, and I am now heading to bed at 10PM. Yes, I miss the "good" shows. Oh well. The only exception? Wednesday nights I stay up and watch "The Good Wife" because it is the best show on television - network or cable.

Status: DONE

CONSISTENCY

As I make every effort to be settled in bed by 10PM, the alarm is set every morning for 5:50AM. It used to be earlier - 5AM, but I was always fighting being tired until well into mid-morning. Getting up a little before 6AM makes an easier transition into my day. I consistently get a little less than 8 hours a night. It works. The key? Do the same on the weekends. The weekend is not the time to sleep in. Now, around here the weekends usually mean an earlier alarm as often Claire is timekeeping for a 7AM game and Caden can be at his hockey game, on the other side of town for 7AM. On those days the alarm is set for 4:50AM to get everyone up, fed and out the door on time. 

Status: DONE

DARKNESS

I have always been loathe to do this because I don't want to put up curtains in my bedroom. I have a gorgeous view of the lake and even at night the glow of the moon on the water is so magical. As it turns out, after reading and reading, the light went on and I realized the easiest way to make this happen is to wear a night mask. Why sleeping in the dark is so important? Lots of reasons, but this one really had me take notice.

Status: Mask purchased and I'm getting used to it. Still considering curtains.

NO ALCOHOL OR CAFFEINE

We've all been told to avoid alcohol and caffeine, right? A no-brainer. Well, I'm a slow learner. As part of my Personal Do, I have reduced my alcohol intake and really only have an occasional glass of wine. Well, since January 3rd, and more in an effort to take in less sugar than in an effort to sleep better. But better choices are better for lots of reasons, right? As for caffeine, I have one cup of coffee in the morning and usually it gets cold. It really is that first sip. Love it.

Status: DONE.

NO FOOD OR DRINK 

Rule of thumb is no food or drink two hours before you go to sleep. In my case I rarely eat after 7PM but I've been trying so hard to increase my fluids that I always bring a glass of water up to bed with me! Hmm. Maybe that's why I'm up at 3AM!

Status: In Progress.

RELAX & ROUTINE

The only way to fall asleep is to stop actively trying to fall asleep so it's best to set yourself up for success. The best way to wind down is to have a routine that results in us doing absolutely nothing. Routines can include taking a hot bath, read a book, write in a diary, engage in easy and reflective activities, not stimulating ones like a mystery novel, surfing the net or watching television. Easier said than done. I got into some terrible habits when I had the kids: there were four kids in five years and Louis worked out of town every week - sometimes for weeks at a time - for seven or eight years. The television would be on all night long while I was up for feedings, sick children, sleepless nights. I often have the news channel blaring all night long. 

Status: Relax? Routine? Thinking about it. Have to work on it. Right now it is epic fail!

TEMPERATURE

Turns out the temperature in our bedroom affects the way we sleep, too. Sleep is so complicated! Who knew? Well, in my case I need things to be cool, but I have to have a blanket, some weight on me. Nothing binding and definitely no socks! My bouts with frozen shoulder also force me to have something on my back make things far to tense.

Status: DONE.

EXERCISE

Regular exercise is probably the easiest, quickest way to get better sleep. Seems to be key to a lot of things on my personal do list!

Status: In Progress

It's a slow go, but I am definitely starting to feel much better. There are a few things I definitely have to start doing, but making wholesale change is hard and I don't want to change so many things at one time that I just get fed up and give up. Baby steps. Baby steps.

One Little Word | Captured | 04

This really should be version 05 rather than 04 but last week was chaotic with multiple trips to Stratford. Though I'm a week behind, this DO is actually about that trip.

THE STORY: A short week ago, I blogged about what a privilege it was for my son Cole, and his team, to be invited to play in the Nations Cup hockey tournament. Perhaps a once in a lifetime opportunity to wear the uniform and represent our country. If this event doesn't warrant an album, I don't know what does! 

WHY DO? As is my custom, I brought my camera and took oodles of photos. 1,400+ which I managed to edit (I know, can you believe it?) to the 101 uploaded to Flickr all brighter, cropped and sharpened. This was done by Tuesday. Bonus? Once the photos were selected, I found a digital template to use - a re-purposed December Daily square layered template from Ali Edwards. I found some gorgeous Michelle Martin papers already purchased and just waiting in my iPhoto files. The piece de resistance? An old - I mean OLD - 8x8 Creative Memories album I've been wanting to use! The only cost of the album is the photo developing. Not only were all of the materials selected, but the pages were just sent over to the photo developer. I'm no longer "hoarding" pretty things to be used "later" or for something "better". After all, the whole idea is for these pretty things to be used!

Bonus? It is Cole's 14th birthday today. This is his gift. I was greatly motivated to get this done for him.

Now I just have to take photos of it all ... and maybe post them :) My next do?

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

2011 | Social DO | 01 leaving love

I don't know if you've ever received an e-mail out of the blue, from someone you admire - a rock star, a crush, an actor, a writer, a lecturer, an artist - in my case, a talented album maker; it's a thrill.

Recently I've received three e-mails and they've all left me with a sense of disbelief followed immediately with the need to print or frame or make a page or honour in some way. One writer and two album makers sent notes to me. Each one of them actually took the time to find my e-mail and send me a note. They even knew my name, not "linarstudio". Hello? These are busy people, people!

There must be some kind of shift in the universe. A happy wrinkle in time.

Or maybe it's because I put myself out there to express how much I admire their work. Maybe by expressing my genuine interest in what they do, how they do what they do and why they do what they do and how it effects and inspires me, resonated with them in some way.

I am learning that good things come to you when you put yourself out there. Expecially when you put yourself out there with zero expectation. Sure, some comes back and bites you in the butt - good thing mine is ample - but if you are genuine you have no worries.

What "celebrity" blogger intimidates you the most? Pioneer Woman? Brené Brown? Dooce? Gwyneth Paltrow? Ali Edwards? Danielle LaPorte? Even a non-celebrity-but-should-be blogger? Have you told them how they inspire you? You will feel so good leaving a piece of yourself for them to read. I know for sure they will feel good hearing from you, too.

So with that, go forth and leave love!

2011 | Spiritual DO | 01 enough already

 

Less is more.

I become more convinced with the more I experience. The more I read. The more I am.

As many of us do, I live in a highly competitive, A-type community where nothing is ever enough. How disheartening to be surrounded by a constant feeling of dissatisfaction. While I was reading the multitude of blog posts and www entries and facebook status updates reflecting on the onset of the new year, I was overwhelmed with the constant theme of more, more, more.

I spent the better part of 2010 embracing less, less, less.

I stumbled upon one post that made me sigh with relief.

It is with this post in mind that I reflect:

A MAN NEVER EARNS ENOUGH. One who is able to provide for his family earns plenty. I know that "earns" takes on many forms, but a roof overhead, food on the table, clothes on backs, health care provisions and an education should be the simple, criteria. If a man does not earn that, the bare basics, then there is legitimate cause for dissatisfaction.
A WOMAN IS NEVER BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH. Beauty is one of those things that is truly in the eye of the beholder. Personally, I've gone through plenty of transitions. I've had the highs of being a paid model earning plenty to get by to being an overweight mama. I'm still the same person. Beautiful? Absolutely. It all depends on the standard by which you are measuring.
CLOTHES ARE NEVER FASHIONABLE ENOUGH. Fashion. Hmm. As a child of the '80s it takes on a whole different perspective. Anything is better than that! Mind you, I'm about simple. My wardrobe? Even if I were a fashionable size would still consist of black, white, camel and red. Simple pieces. Simple looks. Classic is good.
CARS ARE NEVER NICE ENOUGH. I've always been pretty practical about my vehicles only because the maintenance and repairs of expensive cars are enough to finance a small property! You'd think when you shell out a bundle that would be the end of it, but I've found (vicariously) that there is not often value for the dollar based on the initial outlay. I live in a Mercedes town and drive a Toyota. I'm a rebel :)
GADGET ARE NEVER MODERN ENOUGH. My temptation is always the $1,200 lens - but the challenge is rocking the $300 one I own. And I do. By chance or by design. It is the gadgets that get me. I think it's time to embrace (more) the analogue.
HOUSES ARE NEVER FURNISHED ENOUGH. I used to believe that, but really, as long as it's clean, easily maintained and happy, who cares? Which is my constant dilemma with my house.
FOOD IS NEVER FANCY ENOUGH. Hello, have you met my hips? Food can be too fancy! I spent all of 2010 changing the way my family eats. No more processed food. No more restaurants. No more take out. No more fancy. Fancy means calories, fancy means $$, fancy means time cooking, fancy means bigger hips. As long as it fills you up, meets the nutritional demands of the food groups, it doesn't need to be fancy.  It needs to be nutritional, filling and tasty.
RELATIONSHIPS ARE NEVER ROMANTIC ENOUGH. Romance always scared me. It was as stable as ether. I was happy to settle for stable. Less chance of disappointment. Every relationship comes with a price. At least my price was not as far from reality as romance.
LIFE IS NEVER FULL ENOUGH. Full? Full I have in abundance. 

My guiding word for 2011 is DO. I have every intention of DOing, but I will with the guiding principal that less is more and I have enough already. Cost does not mean value. More does not mean better. More is just clutter.

Less is more.

Do more. Embrace less.

My spirtual mantra for 2011.

Are you local?

After speaking with some ladies at our local hockey tournament over the weekend, I was surprised (and delighted) at the number who read my blog.

As rink conversations go, we discussed many things and one topic was about how little time we dedicate to our creative selves and how many things we would like to learn to do or simply make time to do. Well, I know many creative ladies and thought wouldn't it be nice to get together and encourage each other to take the time and do so in good company?

This event is to start that conversation.

Send me an e-mail and let me know you can attend! This could be a lot of fun. Oh, and if you don't think you're creative? No worries, if you drink tea or wine, you're more than welcome to join in the conversation :)

Digital Detox :: What & Why & How

What ::

Late last fall, Susannah Conway did a digital detox. It consisted of not just a physical purge but also a spiritual one.

Why ::

Cuz it's gotta get done! I think my spiritual cleanse will be a natural (and welcome) result of less clutter in my virtual life. Bottom line: if you can't find it then it is just clutter.

How ::

You know how I don't like to reinvent the wheel? I'm going to "roughly" follow her formula, tweeking it to meet my own particular programs. Unlike dear Susannah, there is no way any one project will take only one hour, but I will make every effort to spend no more than one hour on the smaller projects and only one hour chunks, many times over, for the bigger projects (iPhoto, Word and Bookmarks).

MONDAY Social Media: detox Facebook, Twitter (use UnTweeps) and Flicker; specifically focusing on the purge inactive "friends"
TUESDAY Google Reader: purge unread, inactive or negative blogs. I have been adding like crazy over the holidays and I now have 498 subscriptions. Hello? That's insane.
WEDNESDAY Desktop: tidy, purge, tidy some more :: Blackberry: clean up contacts, applications, memos
THURSDAY Address Book: declutter and organize, complete partial listings, delete the rest
FRIDAY Google Calendar/iCal: check for accuracy, make necessary changes and updates
SATURDAY Downloads: delete anything not used - especially e-books and digi elements!
SUNDAY Email: figure it out. Yes. Really. What program is this and why can't I add folders? Then put a plan together and purge and organize.

BIG PROJECTS to do through week:

• Firefox: Purge and organize all bookmarks, tidy toolbar
• iPhoto: Delete, delete, delete, file
• Word: Delete unnecessary files, organize remaining
• Network: Call Dean and get the house organized
• Old computers: pull off all necessary information and properly dispose of hardware

BACKUP

BACKUP again.

What about you? Do you save your digital cleansing to do all at one time or are you able to keep up with it all as you go? What are the best tools you've found? Tell me your secrets to digi organization!

One Little Word | Captured | 03 + Give Away!

I continue to rock the DO  and enjoy the accountability of this challenge of Jill's: One Little Word | Captured. It has me thinking of what to do and what to share next, in a photographable way. Something tangible, with dimension, heft, not just something I've done on the computer or errand I've completed. Exactly what I wanted for this year!

This is how I captured DO this week:

THE STORY: A couple of years ago, as a thank you gift, I received the star, moon, heart, flower collection of pewter mini magnets. They are adorable and I really like them. So much so, I purchased two tins of each kind in order for me to have them around as quick gifts for others. Guess what?  I gave them out, many of them, to friends and teachers, and I have a few left. Kind of a mini-hoarder situation. "Keep for special" "Don't use myself - they're a gift"  "You never know when you'll need it". You know the deal. 

WHY DO? They aren't too special for me to use! It's like "saving the good china". Why? They were purchased to be enjoyed not to be stuck in the tins in the hall hutch. So, I have pulled them out of hiding and am enjoying them on my magnet board in my studio. Now I see them and I smile. Before? I didn't even see them. That's no good, at all!

I have THREE tins left: School, Gardening and Angels. For you! Leave me a comment by 10PM Eastern on Saturday, January 22nd and let me know what you don't use in your house because it is deemed "too special" to qualify to win one of the three tins.

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but this weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

2011 | Creative DO | 01 album making

[It looks like my Friday DO posts are running a bit long. Like REALLY long! As always, feel free to read through this, my planned album making projects for 2010 - or come on back tomorrow.]

I've been happy with my creative process so far in 2011. Good thing we're only a couple of weeks into things, isn't it? I figure if I celebrate my early success (#reverb10 album DONE; December Daily album DONE), I'll be more likely to continue in effort of further success. Make sense?

I just sat down and put together - what became - a very long list of my album projects, as they are known to me right now, for 2011. I'm sharing them for two reasons: accountability and you know how much I love a list! I have learned that you have to set yourself up for success and in order to do that you must prepare with the end in mind. This is my prep:

MMEL: Move More Eat Less
As often happens, I'm totally inspired by Cathy Zielske. As mentioned in my Personal DO | 01 entry of January 7th, my primary personal focus for 2011 is my weight. Cathy has found a way to combine my hobby with my impending torture and I've started the MMEL project: templates have been purchased AND I've completed my title page AND my first layout, complete with photos and measurements. Scary stuff, but it has to be done!
Album: digital; 8.5" x 11" Orange or Bright Green

Happiness Captured
My weekly photography challenge with Jill Conyers. We are two weeks in and two weeks done! Can you imagine looking back at weeks of things that only bring you happiness? This may turn out to be the real Me: A to Z :)
Album: hybrid; 5x7 red, black or brown; to accomodate vertical photos

Team Up Thursday
My original weekly photography challenge with Shirley LeMay. We are continuing through 2011 and I'm thrilled to be exercising this process.
Album: altered; 4x6; to accomodate vertical and horizontal photos

Yesterday & Today
I am in the remedial program (politely called alumnae, year 2) of this class over at Big Picture Classes. Again lead by the incomparable Ali Edwards. The other day I was on the Log Your Memory site and when we were listing out some of our projects I wrote a simple sentence crushing in its truth: "getting stuck on the yesterday" which may be why it's not getting done. I am an onward person. I recently found a fantastic quote that really resonated with me: "You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space." - Johnny Cash I know that is not a philosophy that jives well with the Yesterday & Today project, but that really is my struggle. Don't expect this to be done any time soon while I wrestle with my daemons.
Album: hybrid, no album decided; put all materials in one big box; file all assignments in folder on desktop; print the rest and put in binder to put in box.

One Little Word
Another more "do-able" project over at Big Picture Classes, again lead by Ali Edwards. This is my third year choosing a guiding word. Far more flexible than a list of resolutions which I will fail before I even begin. The beauty of the word idea is that you never fail, you just move on to something that works better within the context of the word. For those of you who don't know, my word this year is DO.
Album: hybrid, 8.5x11, bright green, mixture of page protector sizes. To this I will be adding a "Jill Section" to accomodate all of the photos taken during our One Little Word | Captured challenge of this year.

Picture Winter
Yes, I am a Big Picture Classes JUNKIE! As a follow-up to Tracey Clark's Picture the Holidays, I enrolled in Picture Winter. I rarely, if ever take photos in the winter and this was the perfect way to get in an do just the thing I don't do. I've met some success and more challenges. I really have to start uploading photo on the BPC site!
Album: hybrid, 2-up album, black; alter with wood snowflakes.

12 of 12
I started this project way back in 2008! I've stuck with it every month since and (knock wood) have not yet missed a month. It is such a joy to look back and see how things have changed, and stayed the same. Sometimes I miss the time when the kids were all little, but I am really anxious to see who they become.
Album: hybrid, 8.5x11, black. So happy I've finally settled on the perfect esthetic.

52 Photos
I have decided to forego any P365 attempts this year. I'd rather focus on quality than quantity and actually get the albums DONE. In my effort, I've embraced this project hosted by my friend Monika Wright and her friend Elisabet Ottosson over on Flickr. The photos will do me no good whatsoever kept captive on my blog or in my iPhoto so in an album they'll go.
Album: digital, 8x8, black. I will combine 2 photos per page in an old CM album. Gotta use up the old stuff!

Celebrate Monday
I am practicing my vertical shots and using Celebrate Monday to do it. When Jennifer over at Simple Scrapper started the Celebrate Monday challenge on her blog there were no themes. Since Monday is my most favourite day of the week (how else do you get 52 chances for a fresh start?) I decided to celebrate my everyday Monday experience. I'm going to continue on ignoring the theme :)
Album: hybrid, 4x6, red. I have to find what I want. I think I know, but will only really know when I get to the store. Oh, my kingdom for a Target!

Simple Things
Another photo challenge that needs an album "home" in order to have it housed somewhere off the www and my iPhoto. Rebecca Cooper has the participants choose the simple photo of their week and they're all posted on Sunday. So nice to see how everyone spends their time!
Album: hybrid, 8x8 old Creative Memories album - or maybe another old 12x12 album. We'll have to see. Still thinking about things!

Month In Review
Another Cathy Zielske-inspired project which combines my photos taken during each month with the summary of our month I share here on the blog. Using CZ's gorgeous templates, each month has multiple pages and is a perfect place for those photos that would not normally find a "home" in any other project. I know, is that possible? Yes. It is. :)
Album: digital, 8.5x11, brown. I know, a lot of 8.5x11. LOVING this size for the simple everyday projects. Very versatile especially since I can insert simple page protectors with things from school and other activities.

Upcoming Projects (yes, more!):

EMBRACE IMPERFECTION
An upcoming project - at where else? BPC - lead by the thoughtful and talented Karen Grunberg. As I'm a regular embracer of imperfection, this sounds like it will be a great way to package it all and put it together in an album project.
Album: Unknown. The 1st lesson is February 10th.

A WEEK IN THE LIFE
An upcoming project (I hope). I've completed two versions of this album: October 2008 and April 2010. They have turned out to be the most-read albums in my house. They are in the family room, with a number of other albums, and I often see the kids taking them off the shelf and flip through them, laughing and telling stories to each other. One of the many reasons I admire Ali Edwards so much is that, with her guidance, I created the most valuable albums in our collection. The first two projects were 18-months apart. I like the idea of representing different seasons. Maybe I can create the 2011 version in the summer, maybe sometime in July? Though, I really enjoyed the online community Ali built with the last project, so I may wait and see if another is scheduled for this year.
Album: hybrid, 12x12. Bright Green.

Wow.

Reading through that huge list my plans looks very busy. I think if I put the processes in place it should be manageable. I find that my most effective album making is done in more project format than some never-ending album of ephemera - items, thoughts, ideas and photos. I enjoy making my 12x12 layouts and giving the time and attention to certain events, but it is the everyday stuff that really makes me love the combination of photos + words in simple contained projects.

 

Happiness Captured :: Week 02

My friend and inspiration (for a few years now) Jill Conyers and I have teamed up for Happiness Captured. Through the week we take a photograph of something that makes us happy and combine it into a diptych (well, Jill does that) and voila:

You see what made us happy this week.

Jill :: Almost 4 months ago I started the P90X 90-Day Challenge. This has proven to be one of my best decisions of 2010 and will definitely be a part of 2011. My favorite way to start the day. Strength. Confidence. Health. Definitely happiness captured.

Me :: That is not just a photo of lobsters, but missed-the-Happy-New-Year-festivities-pre-cooked-and-on-sale-lobsters Louis bought this week at Fortino's. I enjoyed them cold, directly out of the shell - no mayo, no drawn butter, nothing to take away from the sweet and rich flavour. Delicious! Lobster is the most tasty food on earth.

Bonus! How could I resist anything with my guiding word for my life combined with the word I've chosen to guide me through the next year:

Perfect.

One Little Word | Captured | 02

A little over a week into the New Year and I'm very happy with my choice of words! So far I've been rocking the DO. I enjoy the accountability in this challenge of Jill's and am already in the middle of project plans to share by this time next week.

This is how I captured DO this week:

THE STORY: I blogged about it when I posted the project earlier this week. A quick summary? I participated in #reverb10 and put a lot of effort into the process. I didn't want to see that effort lost in the ether of the internet so decided that since I have oodles of supplies - doing nothing in their packages, why not print it out and put it in an album?

WHY DO? I didn't just think about the idea of putting an album together; I put an album together. In a tangible real sense. My words and effort are no longer lost. Not only that, Louis (who never reads my blog) read my album, and he liked it! Even better? I have put together the outlines of a "DO" album which will incorporate not just the photos for this challenge, the stories behind the photos, but lists and posts that support my effort to DO through the year. This album is largely based on Ali Edwards' project over at Big Picture Classes. So glad I signed up! My "job" has deadlines, but there is not much consistent accountability and I'm enjoying this process. Here's to 51 more weeks of DO!

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

2011 | Personal DO | 01

[This post got really long, so you're welcome to visit again tomorrow instead :) This is the why of how I got where I am. The why of my need to change. I need to put it "out there" to: own it, to account for it and hopefully change it. The story needs context: a begining, middle and end. I can't just start at my 46-year-old self. Read, or skip.]

As I announced earlier in the week I'm letting go and embracing my YEAR OF DO. My first area of focus is my Personal DO. In that area my priority is my weight.

I've whined for a while and I have made a half dozen or so half-hearted attempts at doing something about losing weight, with some success and some failure. I've let the failure win.

Self-sabotage is an pavlovian response with which I am very familiar. Through #reverb10, a process in which I was very honest in my thoughts and words, I addressed the concept of weight as my armour. Years ago I was shaped much like my eldest daughter: tall, broad shoulders, long legs, and curvy with a bubbly personality, lots of well-informed opinions and tons of athletic energy. In essence, a lightening rod for attention - some wanted and some not. The only thing left of that girl of my youth is my height, shoulders and well-informed opinions.

I have found, over the last couple of years, that my size makes me invisible. I know that sounds counterintuitive, but it is true. It also feeds my self-sabotage because on those rare occasions I am noticed often people are mean. Yes, people are mean to fatties. Really mean. To the point where my losing 20 pounds would never be noticed so therefore, I wrongfully reasoned, gaining 20 pounds wouldn't be either. I live in a town with a great number of lovely people, but most of them are the LuLu Lemon crowd and rarely are they in sizes with double digits, let alone a digit that starts with a 2. *gasp*

Let's be straight here - I have no clue how much I weigh. It doesn't matter to me. It never has. What I am is 5'11" and I wear a size 22. What matters to me is my size. The size that worked best for me was years ago, before I had children and I was a size 14. Smaller than that I look emaciated and (to me) unattractive. That is my goal. Even a 16 would be welcome.

A bit of background:

When I graduated high school (in 1982) I was a size 8. I went to university I was a size 8. When I modelled I was a size 4, sometimes a 6. I looked like tits on a stick. It was terrible. In a fit of rage, many years ago, I destroyed all of those photos because I couldn't get work. I had been hospitalized for my asthma and put on prednisone, a powerful steroid and as a result, I gained enough that my wardrobe had to be replaced. In three months I became a size 10. I was deemed "unhirable". Time passed, I took a transfer, life changed and I became dedicated to my demanding career, I settled in a comfortable size 12 - 14. Amazing what happens when you work 70-80 hours a week, eat every lunch at the local food joint, fly at least 3 days a week and never make a meal at home - unless it's a dinner party for friends and then it's all "special" foods which are usually delicious and caloric.

For a very long time I lived a wild existence. I could do what I wanted. I could date who I wanted. I got what I wanted, when I wanted. I was confident. I was unattainable. I was selfish. I was competitive. I was sleep-deprived. I was successful. I was living life out loud, 100% carefree and looking for a good time. I loved every single minute of it - with and without the hangover.

Until I had children I don't think I ever had much more than a lemon and a jar of dijon mustard in my fridge. Nothing fresh or with an expiration date!

(Not even wine. Truth be told, I never drank wine until I moved to Oakville.)

Then I grew up, conformed, settled down. Four kids in five years, in a body over 30, is probably not the recommended course to keep your body fit and firm, but it isn't the reason I am now a size 22. So much more added to it: I often don't eat breakfast or lunch and live on coffee until around 2PM; except for housework and laundry I don't move as much as I should; there were two non-baby-related hospital visits where there was more prednisone, ugh; my wine discovery; I quit my 25+ year smoking habit; almost lost my youngest child; two failed businesses (aka a stop to pouring good money into bad decisions); a challenging marriage; the regular demands of children and change. Life is getting in my way! An emotional, physical and intellectual whirlwind.

Essentially I forced myself, with intent, into a position of non-priority. In some warped fashion it is my armour. My safety net. My forced resistance to temptation. By becoming so large and unattractive I have provided prevention; in this condition there is no chance to revert to my wild and carefree days. It screams that I am a mum - not a mum with a need for attention or extracurricular activity - which has reached epidemic proportions in my town. (On that note, it has worked for the most part, but news to the ladies struggling to be a size 2 and have such drawn and old looking faces as a result of their tremendous (admirable) control and effort: some of your husbands like some meat, and I have plenty, which has not proven to be the deterrent I had hoped!)

I took a while, but I've come to realize that my weight no longer defines my self worth. Or lack thereof. It isn't even providing the armour I thought I needed. My health and weight should be a reflection of my love for my children and myself.

And it is.

Plans for my Personal DO

Move More, Eat Less is a program put together by Cathy Zielske who has impeccable timing. I'm so ready to do this, though, in my case it might be a matter of move more, eat more since my biggest problem is not eating breakfast or lunch then binging by dinner.  

My preparation includes: downloading Cathy's fitness journal templates from Designer Digitals, joining the group on Flickr, loading classic books (lots of Jane Austen and Fyodor Dostoyevsky) onto my iPad and dusting off my recumbent bike. I'm even thinking of heading to the mall - not to shop (ick) but to do join the seniors and walk a couple of hours each day until the weather improves. That or buy a treadmill.

When did I start? Well, I start on SATURDAY, JANUARY 8th, yep, tomorrow. Why a Saturday? According to the brilliant Dr. Oz, most resolutions are stuck to when they start on a Saturday rather than a Monday and this is the first Saturday when things are "normal" as all of my kids were back to school by Wednesday. From the lessons learned when I quit smoking (hardest thing I've ever done ... ever, that last time) I am giving myself the best opportunity for success possible.

On that note, it's wrong to say I'm starting on the 8th as I've been going through some behaviour changes since before our Thanksiving in October:

• cut back on wine (though I think I should just cut it out completely)
• cut out cheese which has been brutally difficult
• eat only one meal a week outside of my kitchen (chicken fingers and garden salad with no dressing at the rink before Cole's home games on Thursday nights.)
• eat two fish-based dinners each week
• eat breakfast as often as I remember
• cut back to one cup of coffee every morning
• to bed at 10PM if not earlier

I've become consistent at all of those behaviour changes. With that I mean, over 90% of the time those statements above are true. What I have not done is add in any exercise. That has to change. NOW.

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If you've made it this far, bless you.

Feel free to send me any advice, ideas, opinions, links, whatever you think I need to keep me on track!

#Reverb10: The Album

I love the internet. I enjoy the ease with which I can collect information: see and read about things to which I would never otherwise be exposed. I also love how I can combine my internet love with my more tactile love of books and albums. This is something I've wanted to do for a long time, so instead of just thinking about it, I'm doing something. Whoot!

This past December, I participated in two activities: December Daily - which is not yet completed, but almost; and, #reverb10 which proved to be challenging and rewarding in it's imperfection.

Mid-way through the month I was already mourning it's loss. After all, once the month was over there would be no need to visit my mini-blog again and all of that thought and effort would be lost. Then I got the bright idea that this would be the perfect project to accumulate those challenges and stories in an album. Not a typical photo album, but an album made up mostly of words. A bit of a change for me.

This is how it turned out:

 

In order to even things up a bit since I didn't want any articles split, I added in a few of my favourite photos - as long as they indicated something reflective, or the idea of a journey.

MATERIALS:

Album: American Crafts Cloth Album 8x8
Cardstock: Bazzill Basics White Orange Peel
Font: Verdana

[In answer to Cheri in the comments: I did this the old-fashioned way, cut-paste-cut-paste. Into Word, not even into PSE!]

I included every page since I figured it was best to show the album in it's entirety. (I'm always wondering what's missing when I see only album experpts on other blogs.) I know many of the pages look the same, but the content is different. If you click on any of the photos and they should enlarge in another window, failing that, if you have trouble reading, head on over to read the original entries. This is the perfect word-capture of my life, right now. As we head into a new decade I'm happy I took the time to slow down and absorb it all in a more reflective and meaningful way.

Alas, my cold is still with me and this is about the extent of what I could create today - take and edit photos! (I didn't even remember to put in a materials list, thanks for the reminder, Cheri!) Thanks to everyone who sent along a cold cure here and on Facebook! I am overdosing on Vitamin C and sleep. I hope to be back tomorrow. Happy Wednesday all :)

2011 Photography Challenges

Are you looking for something to challenge your photography skills? I am amazed at the number of opportunities available on the www - themed challenges, blog link ups, Flickr groups - everywhere I look I find a new and exciting challenge! The real challenge? Paring it down so that I can manage it all. You know the mindful thing I've been harping about? :) Oh, and of course: DO.

I have participated - to various degrees of success - in Project 365 for the last couple of years. I often found it to be pretty cumbersome, though it did train me to bring my camera with me and I no longer feel the need to apologise or feel embarassed by using it wherever I might be. I think I learned what I needed to learn and it's time to move on.

Yes, onward.

This year, my plan is to participate in:

52 Photos in 52 Weeks hosted by Monika Wright and Elisabet Ottosson on Flickr. Challenges are posted on THURSDAYS. I even managed to post my first photo, on time!

P52 | 52 photos of 2011 | a less ambitious version of P365 hosted by Darcy of Life With My 3 Boybarians on Flickr. It's all brand new and the kinks are being worked out. Join the conversation on Flickr if you want to get involved.

Celebrate Monday which I thought was defunct is not! Today Jennifer over at Simple Scrapper announced that things are back on! It looks like there is now a theme component. I don't know how well I'll manage with a quick turnaround. We'll have to see.

Simple Things will continue over with Rebecca Cooper on her blog via a direct link system. A relaxed weekly challenge celebrating ... simple things.

I'll be teaming up with friends for two challenges:

Team Up Thursday will continue with Shirley LeMay with with more consistency, I hope (totally my fault last year ... I don't do well with quick turn-around). We've put together a plan and I'm sure between us we can pull it off!

Happiness Project with Jill Conyers and we are still fleshing out all of the details, but I'm excited about this. Our first diptych:

I know, a photo of me, on my blog. Shocking!

To improve my "less is more" photo approach to this year, I'm taking two expert-lead courses:

Picture Winter over at Big Picture Classes is lead by Tracy Clark of Shutter Sisters fame. I participated in My Best Shot Monday which is how I got to know Tracy and her great talent and kindness.

Joy of Love with Willett Designs that runs from February 1st - 28th. Last year I bought a posing guide and it has proven invaluable!

In order to keep me on-track with my guiding word for 2011: DO I've joined in with Jill again as she is hosting a weekly challenge - a photographic interpretation of our word. I was so excited about this particular challenge, I put my album together before I took my first shot!

Certainly some of these challenge may go by the wayside, and new ones embraced, as 2011 goes on, but as of this very moment, these are the photography challenges I'm hoping to participate in. What is challenging you? Did I miss something fabulous?

One Little Word | Captured | 01

I have long admired my online friend, Jill Conyers, for many reasons. Those reasons will become apparent when you join her, along with me, on her journey to capture her one little word for 2011. The idea of this photo challenge is to honour your word each week of 2011 and post it. My word? DO. Her word? Embrace. Your word? Join in and let us know!

This is how I captured DO this week:

THE STORY: First thing on Thursday morning I was running behind and had to rush our Norwegian friends to the rink for their semi-final game. The drive to the rink was breathtaking - we slowed down to take in all of the sparkling monochromatic landscape of gray, silver and white frost on all of the trees, bushes, and grasses on the side of the road on our journey. Guess what? No camera!

WHY DO? I had to go back home to collect my kids to attend the game. Normally I would be so focused on getting them to the game on time, combined with the knowledge that the later it got, the more things would melt, that I would have figured "I'll get it next time".  Next time never comes. With that in mind, I grabbed my camera along with my kids and my fingers crossed and we headed to the rink. As we travelled north most of the stunning frost had melted. My heart sank. Just as we were reaching Dundas and Bronte there was a huge field, full of frost. I pulled onto a little side street, grabbed the camera and captured the photo I wanted! (Not only that, I encouraged Claire to bring along her camera and she got some great shots too. No use in just one of us benefitting from my word!) Two things accomplished: I didn't wait for next time and I actually pulled over. I've never just pulled over to get the shot -I've always wanted to but was afraid I'd annoy someone at best or cause an accident at worst! It really is the little things.

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JOIN: I'm thrilled my friend Jill has offered us all an opportunity to keep on track! I don't know about you, but weekly accountability is good for me. One LIttle Word | Captured is the perfect way for me to incorporate my one little word in to my life. What about you?

2011 | DO

I'm really good at figuring out things to do - mulling, preparing, mulling, collecting, mulling, organizing, mulling, listing and then mulling some more. As much as I am attempting to embrace my imperfection, I paralyze myself with my preparation for perfect. I'm letting go and embracing my YEAR OF DO.

In 2008, my word was huh? What in the world is this word thing in blogland?

In 2009, my word was balance. Wrong word.

In 2010, my word was focus. Right word.

In 2011, my word is DO. Fingers crossed.

To me, DO is a natural extention of focus. I have spent 2010 with that single word resonating in many thoughts and deeds. I've purged a lot of things that were keeping me busy but not keeping me engaged. I have focused on those things that mean the most to me and bring the most joy. It was a year of planning and purging. Much purcolating was accomplished and plans mulled.

For 2011 I thought of words like "move", "action", "motivate", "make", "create", but in the end a very simple two letters will be my focus for the next twelve months.

There are some great articles out there in blogland that I discovered when I was focusing on my word selection for 2011. The incomparable Seth Godin had a very short article which solidified my selection. This was followed the very next day with a smart article over at Blacksburg Belle about Ideas to Change Your Life and Business. I love smart articles.

Personal DO

Move More, Eat Less is a program put together by Cathy Zielske who has impeccable timing. I'm so ready to do this, though, in my case it might be a matter of move more, eat more since my biggest problem is not eating breakfast or lunch then binging by dinner.

My preparation includes: downloading Cathy's fitness journal templates from Designer Digitals, joining the group on Flickr, loading classic books (lots of Jane Austen and Fyodor Dostoyevsky) onto my iPad and dusting off my recumbent bike. I'm even thinking of heading to the mall - not to shop (ick) but to join the seniors and walk a couple of hours each day until the weather improves.

Creative DO

As a direct result of my year for 2010: focus, I am on a number of dynamic design teams which promises to feed my need to create! In addition to Ella Publishing Company, Paper Issues and Log Your Memory, I've signed up for and plan to fully participate in:

Yesterday & Today: is a workshop lead by Ali Edwards, offered through Big Picture Classes running from December 30, 2011 ending March 30, 2011. According to BPC: the goal of Yesterday & Today is to help you meaningfully document and celebrate life by looking to the past before approaching the stories of today. Full Disclosure: this is my second year taking this course and I hope to accomplish more this time around!

One Little Word: Another Ali Edwards lead workshop offered through Big Picture Classes. It runs all year starting on January 1, 2011 ending December 31, 2011. According to BPC: the idea is to join Ali Edwards on a year-long adventure to nurture, cultivate and make your word visible in 2011. This is my third year participating in choosing a guiding word. My first "balance" was a bust; my second "focus" was brilliant; and I hope, especially with the inspiration by Ali et al, "do" will be even better.

Roots of She: *sigh* Smart women, inspiration, creativity sharing wisdom and joy. From their first post: roots of she is a safe space to talk about the wide range of experiences that we have, this is a space that will let other women know that they aren't alone, that no matter what, there is someone out there that knows what you are going through. I so enjoy learning and finding inspiration!

Embrace Imperfection: Karen Grunberg is leading this free class because, according to BPC: her goal is to help those of you who tend to shy away from preserving your stories because your scrapbooking is inherently imperfect. Since I struggle with my perfectionist tendencies, this sounds brilliant!

Log Your Memory: I realize I'm on the challenge team, but I can only encourage anyone and everyone to get in touch with and celebrate their every day. From the introductory page: Log Your Memory is all about capturing your everyday, real life memories. We welcome ALL memory keepers ... paper scrappers, digi scrappers, hybrids ... even NON-scrappers! Even if you don't jump in right away, head on over to the forum, or check out the gallery, peruse the log book. Such an incredible positive place to be.

I suppose this could all go under a "Learn DO" column, but I find the idea of creativity and learning interchangeable. Well, really, I find all of it feeds my curiosity and need to continue learning.

Social DO

I want to spend more time with my friends. Make them a priority. Let them know by my actions that they are a priority. Plan coffee, lunch, dinner, evenings out and make them important enough that the only thing that would make me cancel would involve an aneurysm or household catastrophe.

Regardless of how "famous" or how many other comments there are, I'm going to leave my two cents on blogs I admire and ignore the intimidation factor.

Spiritual DO

This may not sound in the least bit spiritual, but I find I am happier with less. Less clutter, less stuff. This year I plan to cleanse my soul by:

• going through a huge digital detox: clear out my e-mail, iPhoto, subscriptions, bookmarks, reader, downloads, etc. then organize so everything can be easily located.
• clear out my studio and storage area of all creative materials that I just won't use. Donate, donate, donate.
• purge the house of anything not used or loved - every single room.

Family DO

I hope to stay open to all of the changes and challenges my kids introduce (seemingly) daily. I would like to introduce the concept of spend less :: do more which really might cost the same, but it gives us less to pick up, reduces the clutter and has the family spend more time together to solidify their relationships. I'd far rather my kids have event memories than time spent otherwise engaged. This of course has to be balanced with a healthy dose of down time - which I think is equally valuable. We live in a busy house where we are often going in many directions at once. Everyone has an opportunity to do something they love, I have to remember that this time is about them.

Work DO

Though my work (and play) is about writing, I'd like to change things up a bit and create and ETSY shop along the lines of my studio: LINAR. What does LINAR mean? Life Is Not A Rehearsal. That is how I (try to) live my life - every day - with intention and authenticity. That's what I mean by life not being a rehearsal - it is the perpetual opening night. I want to translate that enthusiasm into product: take my love of words + photos and make things to encourage intention and authenticity in the lives of others. A big project, but one I plan to DO.

Do you have a guiding word for 2011? What is it? I'd love to know :)

4 Simple Goals | December 2010

Last August, Elsie Flannigan posted a simple and doable challenge. I really enjoyed it and best of all, I did it! I'm going to stick with what works and in an effort to keep me on track and accountable, I'm going to challenge myself to post my 4 Simple Goals each month, here on the blog.

As a refresher, the challenge guidelines are:

1. choose simple goals that will make your life richer and happier on a daily basis. choose things you may not otherwise get done, but that are not difficult to accomplish. 

2. do not choose result oriented goals, choose activity oriented goals. for example.... instead of "lose 10 pounds", choose something like "eat fresh fruits and vegetables every day". get what i'm saying? positive actions instead of just the end result! 

3. choose goals that are personal that you believe will truly make your life richer just by doing them! they can be daily, weekly or one time experiences. 

4. choose a reward for each goal as it is accomplished! it can be a small or large reward. 

5. blog your goals, each one as you achieve it and a big post when they are all finished before the new year! i'll be doing this too!

I'm adjusting these a little bit to be more monthly in nature which, I think hope will keep me more accountable. (Posting in August for accountability in December was not good for me. One of my many character flaws includes my inability to remember to do things later - if I don't do it right away, it just won't get done at all. ). I digress. Surprise! Also, I'm adjusting the "reward" component, for myself. You, if you are participating can, of course, reward yourself any way you want!

What do you think?

So, for December, the craziest of months, the one where simple might be a good thing (!!) I have a few activity oriented goals to achieve:

1. Google Calendar: update to include all plans for 2011. I have already added in all of the school dates, sporting events and vacation plans, but I need to incorporate Google Calendar into my monthly goals, my blog schedule and my creative assignments. I've learned that little gets done if I don't make time, the best way to start is to get it on the calendar.
2. Alhambra Night: plan a Mediterranean cooking night with friends. As a result of my newfound intolerance for cheese, I've been on a quest to find something to satisfy that craving. Moroccan food comes close and I have to learn how to make it. What better than to have a group of friends learn with me? I have to set up a cooking night for a group of us at a favourite local restaurant, Alhambra, for sometime in January.
3. Prepare for the Norwegians: get the details and make a plan. Our community is hosting hockey teams from all over the world participating in the Richard Bell Memorial Tournament between Christmas and New Year's. We've volunteered to have up to four young boys ('95s) from Norway stay here at the house. I'm looking forward to meeting them, feeding them and watching them play - (s)mothering them with Canadian goodness!
4. Listen to the naturopath: so many simple changes should be incorporated in our lives. It's just a matter of me getting organized and formulating a routine - automating our health choices. The ideas aren't just for Claire and her improving health, but if they 're working for her, why not everyone? I've already purged many of the things from our house and our diet, but there are so many other simple changes that really need to be ingrained into our lives. Cheers to better choices and better health!

REWARD: I do not often splurge on flowers in my house in the winter. It always seems, to me, to be too extravagant and pricey. If I accomplish my 4 Simple Goals I will buy myself a bright flowering plant after I get the groceries. I'll post it next month :)

What about you? Do you have a few activity oriented goals you'd like to meet? If so and you participate, let me know! I'd love to see what you have planned.