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real right now | my future starts now

Well, it started earlier this week.

I knew last year when I hosted my Desire Map Book Club that I wanted this concept, this setting of goals with soul, to be the foundation on which I built my future. At the time I had no idea how I was going to do it! Well, Danielle LaPorte and her brilliant Team D did all that figuring and arranging and organizing for me. They are a remarkable group and I am thrilled to be affiliated with them.

I have spent the last couple of weeks in a beta workshop with Sandi Faviell Amorim to learn all I possibly can from a Master Coach and my fellow participants so that I can offer the best, most complete and fulfilling programs possible.

This is a truly wonderful Thanksgiving week! I have so much for which to be grateful and it only compounds with the more I learn and appreciate. Now I am utterly SWAMPED with paper and the promise held within each page. And learning, as quickly as I can, all of the ins-and-outs of affiliate programs, Facebook pages, website design and business cards. I have even booked the space to use for the upcoming workshops starting on January 7th!

I hope you'll join me.

Now I'm off to Kundalini yoga to get in the right mind set for a creative and challenging weekend - I'll be spending my time building my future.

desire map | working the program

On occasion Danielle LaPorte shares, via her Desire Map emails, interviews with those participating in her Desire Map program. I'm taking those questions and digging deep. Time to answer them here as a way to keep myself on track and stay accountable to this program that has been revolutionary in the way I look at and live my life.

What are your core desired feelings?
 
I'm about to go through the Desire Map process again with my book club, and I have a feeling my current CDFs might change a bit, maybe even more than a bit. Today they are: align + connect + trust + grace

What are you doing this week, or lately, to generate your core desired feelings?

Every activity I engage in, a writing course (taken February 15 and another starts Apirl 22), a painting class (starts April 25), a business course (started March 10), a book club (started January 7), lunch or dinner out with friends and not my kids (at least twice each month), really any opportunity I have to pull myself out of my comfortable introvert coccoon is an opportunity to choose activities that

A) align my choices with my core beliefs;
B) gives me a chance to connect with people I might not have an opportunity to engage with otherwise;
C) each small escape from my safe world gives me an opportunity to trust - my instincts and the actions/words of others; and,
D) within all of it I have a choice to be or not be in a state of grace. So far, so good.

I have been told by many, and I know to my bones, I have a book inside me, I'm finally taking courses to encourage that creative and free part of me. I'm nothing if not fully prepared for greatness :) I have always loved painting but never really felt comfortable taking my time away from my kids to indulge in it. I lead a book club that went through the 5-week program and continues to meet for meetings and field trips which has fostered relationships with women I would never have met otherwise and that would have been a very sad thing. These woman are remarkable and I am privileged to have them in my life. I am moving every day and nourishing myself through meditation, pilates and my sleep and metabolism pod.

On top of it all, I spent two solid weeks working on getting my paper-life in order. I am so relieved. I feel like I lost a bagillion pounds of stress and weight. Order makes me beyond happy.

What lightbulb went off for you when you started to look at how your feelings related to how you did your life/work?

The outrageous idea that I was not wrong, just by being, was revolutionary. Shocking. I have spent a lot of my life being wrong. The idea that I can create a life in complete alignment with what I feel to my core of my being is right was overwhelming and liberating. It took me a bit of time to wrap my brain around the audacity of it all. I was always so goal driven. I truly believed that I would only be worthy if I reached a specific result outlined by others with specific demands. To realize that I am completely in charge of a life that my own personal design was breathtaking. 

When you got clear on your CDFs were there any goals that you were chasing that fell to the way side? Did new or different goals/intentions emerge?

Becoming clear on my CDFs really let me see exactly where I was as a result of my divorce and sole parent/provider of my four children. I had never taken pause to take in that reality. I just dealt with the aftermath. I am 100% mum 100% of the time and I love it. My identity has been, for the past 18 years, in being a mum and I've enjoyed every minute of it. To be a better mum, I had to model even better behaviour by showing my kids that it's okay to have dreams and expectations of yourself. Now it's time to let them take the lessons they've learned and thrive on their own. It's my turn to take the lessons I've learned from them and thrive on my own, too.

What tunes are revving up your core desired feelings these days?

I love listening to XM36, the Alt Rock station. So many great bands!

Kaiser Chiefs. Kings of Leon. Cage the Elephant. Coldplay. Manchester Orchestra. Lorde. Arctic Monkeys. Grouplove. Bastille. Foster the People. The Black Keys. Young the Giant. Muse. fun. The Killers. Foo Fighters. Jimmy Eat World. Vampire Weekend. Arcade Fire. Two Door Cinema Club. American Authors. MS MR. The 1975. Smallpools. Of Monsters and Men. The Neighbourhood. Imagine Dragons. Capital Cities. Passion Pit. Chvrches. Atlas Genius. HAIM. The Airborne Toxic Event. AWOLNATION. Mumford & Sons. The Lumineers. The XX.

My kids listen to alt rock and instead of fighting with them, I decided to embrace their choices. I am so glad I did. Some of this music is so powerful and poetic, I'm glad I didn't miss it.

What's a goal that you're focusing on this year?

I am really interested in seeing where my writing course takes me. If I could accomplish anything it would be to connect with my creative self and trust myself to come up with a kick-ass, insightful, fun, engaging and magical book - or, in my more ambitious moments - series of books that brings out the very best in everyone who reads them.

What's not working that you want to change?

I have a problem. I need conditions to be perfect before I start. I know I can start anything at any time, but I get so hung up on perfect. I have taken the whole "set yourself up for success" to a ridiculous level. It drives. me. bonkers. I'd like to just START and go for it! I need to not give a damn if I fail. I need to just let go and get started.

What are you feeling really grateful for?

So, so much. I have to catch my breath when I realize all of the good I have in my life. The enthusiasm and trust of my children. The support and kindness of my family. The unwavering belief in my ability from my friends. Truly? Realizing who my friends are and aren't and being okay with the difference between the two has been enlightening. I am grateful that I have the confidence to shed emotional and unnecessary baggage to focus on what is important to me and my future.

Desire Map | Setting Goals with Soul

How do you want to feel?

That is the seemingly simple premise of Danielle LaPorte's Desire Map.

Not so simple at all!

I purchased the Desire Map program online last year and went through the painful yet liberating process of discovering my core desired feelings. The premise is to not just have a goal/dream/intention but to feel through the process of attainment the same feeling you will once the goal is realized.

It was a lot of hard work. As with much hard work, it was well worth the effort.

The Desire Map concept contradicts the pervasive belief that "once I get [super fabulous desire] I will be happy". The idea is that "I will be happy as I get [super fabulous desire]". A subtle but shattering shift in approach. Truly, if you are miserable toiling through the process of attaining [super fabulous desire], what in the world makes you think once you've reached the "end" that it will bring something it has never contained? Clarification: hard work does not equal misery and if it does, perhaps you are toiling at the wrong thing.

After about a month of tears and truth, I came up with my core desired feelings:

ALIGN

CONNECT

TRUST

GRACE

Align my thoughts and ideas, actions and words, to my truth. With every decision I make, every choice presented, every person with whom I spend my time, every plan executed, they have to be in complete alignment with who I am and what I believe.

Connect with more people, more activities, more ideas. At its essence, I want to connect with people who bring out the best in me either by agreement or by challenge - with kindness, love and understanding. The big challenge is in phyical connection: I have to force my introvert self to get out more and engage - with people.

Trust myself and re-open myself to trust my instincts. Perhaps, even maybe, trust others.

Grace is a doozie. Not a word ever associated with me, I think it's high time for me to find my grace. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I also chose grace as my One Little Word this year as I know this will be the most challenging of my core desired feelings.

Will these always be my core desired feelings? Probably not, but right now they resonate strongly within me and in this process healing and growing they are serving me well.

I am so happy to have this tool as part of my practice.

BONUS? Danielle LaPorte and her team put out a call for Leaders for her Desire Map Book Club, billed as The Biggest Book Club EVER. As I've been known to do, I raised my hand. The result? I now have a weekly book club! Within it, I've been able to combine ALL FOUR of my core desired feelings in one activity! There are about a dozen participants. These women are tremendous. It is a priviledge to have them in my life sharing their stories, their failures and triumphs; and, witness their kind support and enthusiasm. I am truly blessed.

The book club was designed as a 5-week program and "going rogue" encouraged. So guess what? Rogue it is! Now that we're nearing what would have been the end, we've decided to stick together. Who knows where this journey will take us - but it's looking, and more important, feeling good!

Danielle has oodles of stuff on her blog outlining the Desire Map. If you didn't get a chance to join a book club - real or virtual - you can use the leader guide, reader guide and watch all of the videos. Such enlightening and supportive stuff!

There are plenty of resources: the interview with Tanya Geisler was lovely, insightful and optimistic. The interview with Marie Forleo was brilliant.

Proof that the universe conspires to bring you what you need? Last week I was click.click.clicking and decided to sign up for Marie Forleo's "B-School" but got distracted once I had the screen pulled up. I got back to my desk a note from Danielle LaPorte popped up to announce that they had teamed up! If I had any doubt, I have none now. Signing up for B-School on February 19th, for sure!

Are you part of a Desire Map book club? Have you read it? Done the work? What do you think? What are your Core Desired Feelings?

desire map | personal revolution

When I started following the prompts for the Desire Map For Life, I was hoping they would be a regular addition to Danielle LaPorte's blog, then they stopped as quickly as they started. I sent a note and was disappointed to have it confirmed that they were indeed finished at seven prompts! The good news is that though there are to be no more formal "prompts" there is still plenty of fodder for thought to be found on her website on which I can reflect here on the blog. So, though it may not be designed, I will be making my own Desire Map For Life inspired by the incomparable Danielle LaPorte.

Prompt 7:

What is the one thing you would like to revolutionize in your life?

This was a difficult prompt. With all of the incredible positive and fulfilling changes in my life of late, I don't find much dissatisfaction - just opportunitites to re-evaluate, with which I either accept or deal.

I am pretty adept at taking a negative situation and have it yield a positive result. I call it "turning shit into sunshine" but there are plenty of other phrases. You get the idea :)

Revolutionary change?

I suppose if there were a battle I'd take on, it would be to convert the "mean girls" - which is to say, I'd find a way to make the mean mums not raise mean girls. I suppose, in order to accomplish that, I would have to engage and interact with a group of insecure adults and somehow make them feel whole and valued again. But, like all things, I'd have to invent a way to recognize they have an issue they are passing down to their children.

Can you imagine? A world where women who feel whole, valued, secure, content, fierce and confident raising children to be the same? What if everyone simply treated people the way they themselves want to be treated?

I am in my seventh consecutive year in middle school and I have to say it has not been a pretty experience. Some years have been better than others, but in the main it is a stressful time and I am more than a little done with the whole experience. Happy to move on. The "mean" does not necessarily improve in the higher grades, but the kids become so busy with their school work and seemingly manage to find contentment within their friend group with less judgment of others.

What about you? What dissatisfies you? What can you make it revolutionize for you?

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wellness | practice

On her blog, my friend Katrina asked "what do you practice?" and it got me thinking about my newfound focus on practice as opposed to the setting and reaching of goals. The past couple of years, since discovering my thyroid disease, my goal was to take charge of my health, take my meds and lose the weight. Hmm. Not as easy as I had hoped. Though I had a goal and made a multitude of changes in my life, it seemed to be for nothing as I was met with disappointment at every turn.

Then, at some point, my perspective shifted. Now, instead of focusing on the goal - though valid and worthy - I focus on the journey and enjoy every minute of it. In my disappointment and desperation, it was clear to me it was time for a shift in my attitude.

I made a mindful decision to focus on the practice rather than the goal.

TAKE MEDS & SUPPLEMENTS | each morning, I take my thyroid medication as well as my omega capules and vitamin D supplements - all swallowed with warm lemon water.

EAT BREAKFAST | each morning I have a small container of 0% fat Greek yogurt (strawberry or blueberry) with a half dozen almonds. Better than nothing, but still not enough. This practice needs improvement by adding toast or something else to boost my caloric intake.

REMINDERS | I have set up regular reminders in my iPhone for things like: eating (I'm an eat to live, not live to eat type, so I need to remind myself to eat meals and snacks through the day), moving (I spend a lot of my day writing at my computer - once an hour is a reminder to get up and walk around the block, walk up the stairs and do laundry, that kind of thing), delivering kids to school/activities, collecting kids from school/activities, time to shut down for the day.

REFORMER PILATES | twice a week, since September, I have been attending private and semi private reformer Pilates classes and it is kicking my ample ass. The reality is, if I'm going to be fat, I'm going to be fat and flexible. The weight? It will have to take care of itself. I'm getting into the practice of simply moving more without focus or expectation on a result. I've also purchased Pilates equipment for use at home and I've incorporated plenty of stretching and leaning-in to discomfort.

MEDITATION | once a week I attend Kundalini at iGita, via Deepak & Oprah during their 21-day challenges and my own meditation of folding laundry, waiting in parking lots and regular driving trips to and from Toronto or Kingston. I'm learning to simply be, in the moment. It's lovely. The greatest benefit? I no longer hold my breath.

INTENTION | as often as I remember, I post on Facebook my intention for the day ahead. I did try to use the phrase "with grace" at the start of the year, but I prefer "intention" so I'm going back to the old practice.

WRITE/CREATE | with the television off all day, I now listen to the "spa" channel and sometimes turn on the coffitivity app and then write or create. There is little rhyme or reason to what I write - blog posts, articles, essays, project life, flow of consciousness - though there is far less time spent on the computer now that I have many other things to do and places to be.

EDITORIAL CALENDAR | there are plenty of days that I have no idea what to post here on the blog. My writing often goes in fits-and-starts. I really fell of my practice of daily posting in December and was not pleased with myself. I put together an editorial calendar and it is working beautifully!

READ | in order to write good fiction you need to read good fiction and I found I wasn't taking enough time to do that over the last few years. A handful of books are read each year, but certainly not enough. I joined Patti Digh's book club and with that I know I'll have at least a dozen really well written books read by the end of the year.

COACHING | to keep my goals (yes, I still have plenty!) on track, I continue my practice of attending a coaching session with Helen each week. As my year ebbs and flows, especially now that we're getting into the very worst part of the year - dreary mid-winter - it keeps me propelling myself forward in my effort to: open a boutique, write a book, create a practice for others.

CONNECTION | my relationships are very important. I make it a priority to meet with friends and family on a regular basis, either for a coffee, a meal, a message on Facebook or a phone call. I check in with myself at least once each week to make sure those I value in my life have heard from me and know how much I appreciate them.

DESIRE MAP BOOK CLUB | I have been a fan of Danielle LaPorte for a very long time and I'm thrilled to carry The Desire Map with me everywhere I go - so much good stuff. I keep my Core Desired Feelings (CDF's) with me through every day - they are: trust, connect, align and grace. Recently, I became a leader of her World's Biggest Book Club and conduct weekly meetings with an incredible group of women. I do hope this becomes a regular practice, expanding in content, as we get to know each other and encourage each other on our journey to feel the way we want to feel, every day.

ONE LITTLE WORD | this has been a regular practice for a number of years. I enjoy keeping my word as my focus during the year. For 2014, I chose GRACE (the toughest of my CDF's) and so far so good! I'm looking forward to the next prompt, and all of the prompts through the end of the year.

KINDNESS | though I embrace gratitude as a practice and have done my best to reject judgment, it really is kindness that has found it's way into my every day. I no longer take offence to the choices made by someone else - anyone else. I can only control my own reactions and most of the choices I make come from a place of kindness, if not complete understanding. Decisions made by other people have precious little to do with me so it's far healthier for me to live in a space of kindness and gratitude.

Wow, that looks like a lot, but I need to incorporate a few more practices in order to improve my daily flow.

Once I purge my room of all paper, clothes that need repair, laundry, donations and projects, I hope to incorporate a practice of quiet and peace with no visual chaos.

I'd like to get back into writing morning pages. I think of them around 2PM. I really should do them right when I get back home from dropping the kids at school in the morning.

Though I try to shut down everything in the house around 10PM, I don't actually have a regular bedtime routine. Of course, once the room is more inviting, I think better rest will come with it.

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Not until I started answering Katrina's query did I realize just how much my life has changed over the past year with the implementation of so many wonderful things. Who knew that my profound failure at finding weight loss would bring such spiritual and practical gain? My life is truly unrecognizable from a couple of years ago, but in such alignment with the woman I am and want to be. This was a really wonderful check-in.

What about you? What do you practice?

desire map | image of joy

Prompt 6:

Capture an image of joy.

An almost-six-foot Teletubby? If you can't find joy in this ...well, move on. Hard to believe this is is my baby - well, maybe not. Those of you who know him are familiar with my big goof boy. We are all very happy for that every day.

Rock on, baby.

What about you? What does "joy" mean to you?

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desire map | ideal normal

Prompt 5:

Create an "ideal normal" day plan.

What about you? What makes up your ideal day?

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anticipation | the desire map book club

Join my book club!

On Tuesday, 7 January 2014, at a venue yet to be decided in Oakville, Ontario, Canada, I’ll be leading a Desire Map book club as part of Danielle LaPorte's Worlds Biggest Book Club.

Have you heard of Danielle LaPorte? If so, you’re going to love this! If not, let me explain a little about who she is and why you’re going to LOVE her book, The Desire Map.

Danielle LaPorte is the outspoken creator of The Desire Map, author of The Fire Starter Sessions (Random House/Crown), co-creator of Your Big Beautiful Book Plan, and soon-to-be publisher of DANIELLE Magazine, launching in mid-2014. You can learn even more about her and get a taste of her creative and inspiring message on her website.

The focus of this book club event is to gather together as a group around the shared idea of desire: setting goals with soul and embracing gratitude as a practice. The group will come together and work through the core ideas presented in The Desire Map program in communion and conversation. This is an opportunity to dig a little deeper and get clear about how we want to feel in the New Year and beyond. You can find more reader information as it comes available here.

I’d love for you to join me at this event and all of those that will follow. It really wouldn’t be the same without you. Let me know you are interested and I will add you to the list and send you all of the details about the event.

Spread the word and invite your friends. This is going to be fun!

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Lately, I have been participating in a weekly practice for creating what I want the most. Each Friday, I receive a prompt, an easy assignment to get my "soul flexing". I answer the questions here on the blog, but you can also answer on Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram. Join the community! 10,000 Desire Mappers and growing :)

Here are my posts:

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What about you? What do you desire?

desire map | trust

Prompt 4:

Create a "what I trust" list.

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desire map | define

Prompt 3:

What's a desired feeling of yours, and how would you define it?

I have chosen my four core desire feelings:

TRUST

CONNECT

ALIGN

GRACE

Of those four desires, the most difficult for me will be GRACE. Well, they'll all be difficult but TRUST and GRACE do not come naturally to me. TRUST is something I constantly work on internally. To me, trust is more of a heart project. GRACE combines some inner work as well as some outer polishing!

Though I am a card-carrying introvert, I am not one to keep my opinion to myself should my voicing support or dissent create awareness or conversation. I am not graceful. More like a bull in a china shop - but less belligerent. I'm just awkward, at least I feel that way. I would like to be calm, poised and graceful when offering anything.

There are many definitions and quotes about grace. Believe me! Just Google it :)

My favourite, and the one for which I strive is from Eckhart Tolle:

To offer no resistance in life is to be in a

state of grace, ease and lightness.

Nothing could be further from my natural condition.

It's time to flip this coin and lean in to grace.

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desire map | favourite feeling

Prompt 2:

What was your favourite feeling this week?

At the encouragement of my friend Jill, I've been attending semi-private Reformer Pilates classes with her on Friday afternoons. They have been fabulous. And painful. Not only can I spend time with my friend, but our instructor, Jackie is knowledgeable and tough. I'm learning a lot.

This past Tuesday, I went for a private one-hour Pilates class. My favourite feeling was experienced during that intensive focus on my utter lack of flexibility - very little range of motion.

Over the last six months, I have been really embracing the connection between our thoughts and our bodies. How some things manifest in a physical way to bring attention to areas that need our focus. Like when I suffered with frozen shoulder for a couple of years - it directly correlated with the burden I was carrying at the time. I got rid of the burden and the frozen shoulder went away, too.

Pilates is hard and Jackie is tough. It is exactly what I need right now.

I realized half way into the lesson that even though I'm feeling muscles I haven't felt in years, I am really enjoying this physical challenge. My hamstrings were seizing, my glutes quivering, my belly in the way and sweat was dripping. I loved every minute of it.

My favourite feeling this week? The absolute and utter knowledge that I can do, indeed thrive in the doing of difficult things.

Bonus: the belief that it is not a selfish thing for me to spend some time focusing on me - the physical me. It will do exactly the opposite of what I thought it would do: it will make me a better mother as I model self-care for my kids.

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desire map | living life fully

There is a lot of inspiration on line. Overflowing! I'm learning to pick and choose the things that work for me. Sometimes those who have inspired me in the past continue to inspire, others have run their course and I greatly benefit every day from the lessons learned.

Danielle LaPorte is a favourite of mine and has been for many years. She is fierce. And brilliant. At first I was startled, fascinated and judgemental of her in-your-face approach to life. I have become a full fledged fan over the past five or six years. I am often on the sidelines of her blog, Facebook page and my book shelf is filled with her words - I am happy to cheer her on and gleen what I can.

I bought my Desire Map online last year and I couldn't put it down. I'm thrilled that by the New Year these books will be distributed and available in book stores! Even more thrilled to have been chosen to be a leader in the Desire Map biggest book club ever starting in early January.

With the book in hand, I joined the group on Facebook and have greatly enjoyed the community. I admire the commitment of each member to the process and the stories shared. The bravery I have witnessed has brought me joy and tears - sometimes simultaneously!

Recently Danielle LaPorte has introduced Desire Day on Fridays.

I have hung back, silently considering my participation by reading the prompts and wondering if I am ready to dig deep enough to respond with authenticity and truth. Am I willing to do so outside a journal, and put it "out there" which means, here, on the blog? With, of course, the obligatory hashtag: #DesireMap on whatever platform chosen. Could I participate in 140 characters or less? THAT would be a challenge. Or, would a full entry here on the blog be more in keeping with what I want to express? Or should I simply wait for the prompt and decide on Fridays?

Onward ... to the prompts!

Prompt Week 1: Your Relationship to Destruction, Goddess Kali, and Fridays with Desire
(read it and you'll understand fully my paralysis at starting this project!)

Prompt Week 2: What was your favourite feeling this week?

Prompt Week 3: Be your own dictionary of fulfillment. One feeling. Your world. Go.

Prompt Week 4: What do you trust? An exercise for strength and mind-cooling.

Yes, these are some serious kick-ass, use your head and your heart, prompts!

Scary stuff!

The past couple of years have been filled with all kinds of scary stuff, so this is just one more challenge on this delicious journey of mine. Of course, the best part is that EVERYONE is invited! Head on over to the Desire Map and sign up for the weekly prompts. And, as we've been told, come as you are and "shine your light any way you want". LOVE THAT.

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Prompt 1:

How do you feel about destroying what must be destroyed in your life?

This has been a (long) period of positive transition for me. I destroyed a lot in the last couple of years, but there is still more to purge. I've also built a lot of very good things in the last couple of years. There is still plenty more to destroy in order to make room for more good:

Destroy: My tendency toward unhealthy "habitual" relationships: spending time with people who treat me like I am not good enough and I should consider myself fortunate to be in their presence. The fact is I am good enough and should surround myself with those who believe and practice it. At least I am now much more aware and escape more quickly. I need to destroy my tendency before it requires an escape.

Destroy: My belief and active practice of the word "can't". I can't go to this event, that movie or that activity. I can't lose weight. I can't get healthy. I can't have a relationship. I can't measure up to the "mean girls" - who are, like me, almost 50! I can't survive and thrive in Pilates, yoga or meditation. I can't open a new business. I can't learn "real" photography. I can't write a book. I can't, I can't I can't. I can, I know I can.

Destroy: My need to over-commit - to myself. I know how to say "no" to just about everyone but my children, father and sister. They are also the least demanding people in my life. I over-commit to projects that I really want to do, but overwhelm myself and then live in paralysis and then disappointment when I don't complete the project, the course, the plan.

Destroy: My sense of doubt. My new dedication to authenticity, awareness and love is possible. Right here, existing in front of me with all that is so accessible. I have to stay open to receive everything I am not consciously aware of now. I must be far more aware of my reactions and encourage patience and kindness, keeping my inner-voice criticism to a minimum.

Destroy: My ego. It's time to live fully outside ego. It's beyond time for me to embrace fully love, compassion, empathy, passion, joy and healing - especially toward those who do not feel the same toward me. I'm almost there - it is just within reach.

How do I feel about all of this destruction? Fearless.

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Join me?