So many moving parts this month with activities starting while others were winding down, it was overwhelming and my introvert self just wanted to turtle for a while. Maybe next month? We started with the volleyball banquet, it was eye opening - on so many levels. Bloodwork was re-done and 15 vials should yield some answers, I hope! I drove Chloé to Massachusetts to interview with a prep school. Sixteen hours in the truck for two hours of interview/tour should be sufficient proof that we're serious! The first day of exams was on a Saturday and Cole had two! He actually managed to have SEVEN exams in three days - crazy. Claire had her first Whitecaps tournament in Dundas and it was made clear they need to communicate better as a team if they want to be successful. River Oaks diamond is still out of commission so Caden is attending practice in our backyard, Trafalgar Park. So convenient! Chloé and her grade 9 classmates survived ASCENT which consisted of long days filled with group activities in lieu of exams. Caden presented his POL and got rave reviews from his panel. I learned it's easier to deal with a "lost" child when she is not yours. After four months of healing, Cole has a new girlfriend and I'm happy he's happy. Mercury was in retrograde for most of the month and it made it's presence felt! Claire and I have become quite expert at using jumper cables. Every few months the radio stations in my truck get switched around - this time it must have been Cole since the new addition is the XM Country music station. The best part of no school for Chloé is binge watching shows she missed all school year! Netflix is going to get a workout. I ordered and received an EZ Pass in the mail - for our future trips to New York and Mass - no more waiting at toll booths! Painters, flooring repair guys, roofers, plumbers and electricians have been keeping me company through most of the month in one home or the other. Lots of heavy-duty non-sexy home work is happening! I enjoyed a writers workshop at the Oakville Library, Brian is such a great teacher. The boys enjoyed heading into Toronto to watch the Scotland vs Canada rugby match. We all went into Toronto to Mistura Restaurant to celebrate my nephew's recent graduation from high school. Father's Day was spent (back) in Toronto where we celebrated with Grampy and sisters and families. Caden attended the year-end dinner dance - I know he ate, but doubt he danced! He has become quite social, rounding off the time between the last day of school and closing ceremonies with a few parties and get togethers with friends. The move was perfect - completely uneventful! Well, until Caden had FIVE friends over for a slumber party! Over the course of the first few days it was so nice to have a few friends drop by to say "hi" during the chaos of it all. Chloé had a blast at a surprise party for a friend - and she was surprised at some revelations. I started Yoga for Beginners a 4-week course that has proven to be very infomative. Braces: Chloé's can come off and Caden had his lower hardware installed. We're all measured up for our Phantom Screens - and I was able to take advantage of Claire's employee discount :) Closing ceremonies came and went with little notice - next year is a big one. As Jessica's escort, Cole went to the Appleby Prom - what a difference having a son attend rather than a daughter. So a friend could go away with her husband it was "all hands" to care for her aging mother - and I'm pleased to say my kids enjoyed the experience! Chloé went to Kundalini Meditation for me and plans to return - I miss it and can't wait to get all settled to I can return to my routine. Caden represented by attending the beach volleyball bbq - he brought the burgers :) Report cards arrived and all of the kids did well - no suprises, thank goodness. Claire went skydiving! Cole got his bags packed and left for his World History course - in Eastern Europe. He's off to Poland, Czech Republic, Germany, Russia and Finland. Caden left for his first visit with friends to cottage country - off to Muskoka for a couple of weeks. Chloé and I found ourselves somewhat deserted when we were the only two left at home! She was able to fill her time with shopping, friends and endless Netflix. On that note, over a weekend I managed to watch "The Blacklist" and I really enjoyed it! The flooring guy was remarkably quick and now Tony the Painter has started "fixing" up the old house to prep for sale - he and his team are so good - now I'm choosing colours for the new place!
In the lives of the kids:
Claire | Claire got herself a job as a summer receptionist. I'm so proud of her and the lessons she's learning: "rush hour" is a new and frustrating concept as is the realization, lunch out every day is not cheap and time management is indeed an art. She's putting tons of mileage on Gandalf - taking care of the house in Kingston and all over for ball tournaments.
Cole | Is happily off with a group of teenagers to take his Grade 12 World History course in Eastern Europe. This is going to be a tremendous experience for him and I appreciate all of the Skype updates! It's a great distraction as he waits to hear whether or not he will get a leadership position at school next year.
Chloé | Completed her ASCENT (group activity evaluations) to get through her brutal Grade 9 year. The whole process of middle school was tough, and I never thought it could get worse. I was wrong. This year topped it all off so I'm glad she had a couple of years to test her resilience muscles. I'm so proud of her for grinding through the drama and mean of it all.
Caden | Started his POL with "The doctors said I wouldn't be here right now" - quite the attention-getter for my drama-free boy. He is off to Muskoka for his first time ever with friends to celebrate surviving middle school :) I look forward to hear what he thinks of the whole cottage experience. He has lots of things going on this summer and I know he's going to have a ton of fun.
There was a collective exhale as the school year came to an end.
Life in general:
Weather | We've had a very slow start to summer. We get these crazy hot and muggy days that seem to come out of nowhere. Most of the time things have been quite pleasant, but I do prefer things on the cool side :) With the unstable temperatures and humidity come some really violent weather - some far away, but much too close for comfort.
News | Sometimes I wonder if it's a good thing to have 24/7/365 access to the news. It's so often violent and inconceivable to me. I didn't mind having no cable for the better part of a week. I get my news via television and I had to wait for Claire to hook it up for me. Even with it hooked up I've been busy watching sports - so I'm completely out of touch, and that's not a bad thing.
Sports | Seasons winding down: basketball has the Spurs beating the Heat and the LA Kings took home the Stanley Cup. FIFA World Cup is creating a stir in Brazil with many upsets - as well as violence in the streets. We watched the French Open and have enjoyed Wimbledon, so far. In less elite play, Claire has been enjoying her baseball season - well, seasons as she's on two teams; Cole has really improved as a volleyball player; Chloé is fun to watch play softball and Caden is really becoming a great hitter (except he's somehow managed to lose his equipment bag!) at baseball and is all arms and legs at volleyball - now to get him on the golf course!
Discovery | I can do just about anything.
Looking forward, goals I want to keep at the forefront include:
Work | Everything is on hold until the move is complete and things have settled enough to focus on other things. Though, I find I come up with ideas at the weirdest times - while folding, while re-arranging furniture, while hooking up electronics - so I have a pad of paper set up in the kitchen (centre of my universe) so I can keep a running list of things that flitter through my mind. Who knows what will come of it! Though, I'm keeping myself "in the game" by taking a creative writing course, first assignment is due today!
Health | I started a Yoga for Beginners course up at Zenbar and am finally starting to "get it". Blood was drawn (again) and I'm tracking my eating (again).
Home | I'm doing all I can, as quickly as I can, to make our new house a home. There is a revolving door of kids coming and going so I'm glad I knew this was going to be a Mama-project from the outset!
Fun | Choosing new paint colours! Window shopping for new furniture! Purging and keeping only things I love, things that are useful or that I know to be beautiful :)
Me | I worked really hard for our volleyball team and organization and ended up being the only manager not thanked by the team coach at the big awards banquet. I have to admit, that really hurt. The team parents and players were great and all very kind and went out of their way to "make up" for the ommission for which I am truly grateful. Lesson learned? I won't be saying "yes" next season!
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A couple of years ago I consistently wrote up posts summing up the month that had just past. Then life got both complicated and overwhelming, so much so I was just going from day-to-day in complete survival mode. With this new year I'm getting back into the practices of my past that I have missed.
mindful | word elimination
Words are powerful things.
I am becoming more mindful of how my words effect me and those around me. Surrounded each day by four teenagers, I often have to pause and take my time to construct, carefully, exactly what I say. I love words. All words. Or so I thought.
Over the past few months, I have realized there are a handful of words that bring with them unkind, negative or judgmental connotations. With their simple elimination have added vastly to constructive conversation in my home.
Those words include:
WHATEVER is so passive-aggressive it makes my teeth grit and brain explode - simultaneously! The word combined with the inevitable shrug or stomp or turn in the other direction is a teenage (or immature adult) tactic that had to stop around here.
CAN'T is the one word that makes me sad. The whole idea that my kids think they can't do something makes my heart sick. I have told my kids for years the Henry Ford quote, "if you think you can or you think you can't, you're right." Nothing frustrates me more than my children having an immediate response to an idea or project with "I can't". They are so capable, it annoys me when they limit themselves. If there is one word banned from my home it is this one.
SHOULD implies that something needs to be fixed and there is some level of judgment involved on behalf of the speaker (authority) to someone who is deficient in some way. Nothing like putting your audience on the defensive by evoking feelings of guilt and shame!
JUST is not a word I like to use - it is so limiting. Sometimes I use it depending on my audience, though I find it negative. Ever since I heard it in terms of "I'm just a mom" the word has rankled me.
ACTUALLY might be annoying more in the tone used when the word is said than the word itself. When a sentence starts with "actually" I know the words that follow with will be tinged with condescension.
BUT because (usually) every word after it is the truth. I find that the use of "but" is a way of saying uncomfortable or mean things with a disclaimer. Speak plainly with your intent and you never have to use "but" ever again.
ALWAYS absolutes are trouble - as is the opposite NEVER. I ask that we try to speak in a basis of truth and not exaggeration, which both words represent. Tough with this crowd when adolescence is all about extremes!
Words that need to be spoken only after a mindful pause are YES and NO. Once you have fully considered the implications of the words then say them.
I do my best to encourage my children by setting an example*. Each time I hear a "whatever", "can't", "should", "just", "actually", "but", "always" and "never" out of my mouth, I bite my tongue and then apologise. Behaviour modification at it's finest! I figure, if I expect my kids to behave one way I'd better hold myself to the same standard!
I have been toying with the idea of a Swear Jar to hold monetary penalties for the use of each word. Ironically, I have no problem with the use of the F-bomb or S-word, if used in proper context.
* Often this method is too subtle for my teenaged lot, but at least it strengthens my argument should it come to it.
Posted on 11 June 2014 at 06:15 PM in celebrating the every day, embracing imperfection, parenting, real right now, social commentary, words | Permalink | Comments (0)
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