Nope, not my body :)
My truck ...
It's a really tight turn from the ramp on the right into my parking garage and the wall got the better part of the Suburban :(
It's painful to look at it - scraped off the back end. Gives me chills - the noise was awful. Lucky for me, I have a GREAT auto centre and the truck was dropped off within a couple of hours of this most recent act of stupidity!
A few lessons:
Be more patient with that turn.Remember that the turning radius is tighter for the back of any vehicle.
Treat myself with kindness. AKA: Shit Happens.
Funnily enough, earlier in the day, I was sitting writing notes which turned my mind to pondering the multitude of things - good and bad - that have happened in my life over the last few months. It seems like I'm on some kind of crazy, fast-forward, with so much going on. Life, it seems, has sped up significantly in the last year or so. I finally realized what's going on.
I am active and ENGAGED.
My life has always been busy, but not full. Now I can say, with relief, it has become full and rewarding. A lot happens, push and pull, when you are living conscious and conscientious life. We all can get so caught up in the competition for busy, but I've now turned the corner and adjusted my attitude. I don't compete with lists and to do's - I am content with full. I am content with REAL.
This accident is simply a representation of my getting up off my butt, getting out of the house, engaging the world and doing something. It was so easy to be fearful, small, disconnected while trapped in my house. It was easy and miserable.
Now I'm not in the least bit afraid, small, disconnected, trapped or miserable.
Though I recognize what made me that woman, I'm holding tight to that part of me which is fearful of returning to that place. I am holding, equally tight, that part of me that celebrates my engagement.
There you have it, my real right now.
