You know how you go from link to link and end up someplace completely different from where you started? And it ends up being brilliant and strange and familiar? Well, I happily I ended up back at a post I had bookmarked last summer. It describes a place I thought I'd never find, and yet, here I am.
According to the post by the brilliant Jen Lemon, I know how to be dangerous.
Regularly.
There is no more avoiding it.
1. I state my truth. I do not candy coat. I am outrageously plain. I say what should not be said. Yes, I say it anyway. That elephant no longer takes up residence in my head.
2. I am giving way to the lead of my body. Following my gut.
3. Without analysis, I am acting boldly. I realize I cannot control or direct the outcome of any situation. From the perspective of "nothing to lose", choices are far more instinctive.
4. I am finally open enough to allow myself to feel. As a result, I experience ridiculous joy. I am serious about giving suffering the boot.
5. I embrace fear. Every day.
6. More importantly, I embrace my instincts. They help me face my fear.
7. My memories are more vivid than ever before and the lessons of my youth are surfacing loud and clear. They are reminding me of the promise that was once me and showing me how to get back there again.
8. I am not going mad. I am becoming whole.
9. There is very little left to hide. My head, my heart and my gut have been laid bare. Is there more? Only time and new experiences will tell.
10. My whole heart is full. I am holding nothing back. Those closest to me reap the benefits of this power in my newfound state of vulnerable. And strong.
11. Once I know exactly what I want, I will ask for it. I am recognizing what I need and I am able to express it. I am pushing the edge.
Hey, I think nailing 10 out of 11 is pretty good given the year I've had! The reality is things were pretty miserable for a long time. Too long. This year, as hard and exhausting as it was, was far more liberating and kind than anything I'd experienced up to it's start.
